Tired Survivor

Cw mentions of rape below

And you might ask, RCS, why did it take you all of eternity (3 years) to open up about being depressed?

Because how am I ment to assume they'd take it seriously? These are the same people who didn't care if I cried while they were raping me, so obviously they'd never give a shit if I was depressed.

Turns out I was wrong, suddenly they cared for some unknown reason. Not like, a human amount of caring, but they got me in to see a psych and therapist, both of whom I assume were the lowest in price because they both sucked ass.

Though to be fair, I've never had a therapist that I would call exceptionally helpful.

Nobody who gets payed for mental health expertise has ever made a major difference in my wellbeing. Therapists have been useless, psychiatrists can't find success unless I supplement their sub-standard work with herbal medicine.

My cult deprogrammer has easily been the most helpful person in my progress so far, she's a fucking G.

My owner has been helpful as well as a key element of my support system. They're amazing.

I become a fucking space cadet after one hit, and I'm still high the next fucking morning.

When glitcyrobo said she wrote class-A's based on her experience with weed, I fucking get it now.

Touch was amazing, as was everything else, such as turning to the left and thinking I was in a whole different universe for a sec. I have not been that high ever in my adult life.

As a kid, I've been much higher for training purposes, tbh idk how sober I ever was as a child, but you get the idea it was intense over 12 hours ago.

Still feels a little funky now, I'm def not ok to drive and frankly I don't even think going outside is an amazing idea. Might just watch my little pony half the day idk.

Oh yeah since my friends appartment has the same floor plan as mine, I kept thinking I was in my appartment when I was at his, and kept thinking I was at his after I WALKED home.

Craziest part, this was the legal weed you get at the dispensary. I got that high of the stuff.

Also I'm 280 pounds, I'm not a small woman by any stretch of the imagination. His weed was some sunburst sativa 70% THC thing, gotta text him and find out.

RAMCOA

Ritual abuse

Mind control

Organized abuse