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I finished the disco jacket I've been working on for ages. I might still change or add some more details but I'm really really happy how it turned out and I'm looking forward to actually wearing it

I tried to recreate the halogen watermark effect by using two different types of reflectors, using one as the background, cutting out the design from the other one, and sewing that onto the first one. That leads to a kind of cool effect when taking photos with flash:

For the phasmid, I cut out pieces from the first reflector material and painted on them with acrylics, then sewed them all together and onto the jacket. That the phasmid is an actual extra layer leads to a nice 3D-ish effect

I probably will add some more stuff, especially in the front side of the jacket -- but that might take me another 8 months, so I'm calling it done for now

I'm also going to take some photos of the jacket actually being worn soon

Some more progress pics under the cut:

Image of the progressive pride flag. The triangle that normally includes the intersex flag, the trans flag, and the brown and black bands has been replaced by tumblr's removed-image alert. The alert is a blue background and says, "This content has been removed for violating Tumblr's Community Guidelines."

To those called names, and those searching for names of their own. To those who live on the edges, and in the spaces in between.

I wish for you every light in the sky."

In the second image, clippy is writing on their note pad and says "If you think you love 'freedom' but you don't care if it applies to everyone, what you actually love is 'privilege'."

In the third image, clippy is warped to atom-like ellipses, next to a warning popup that reads "Trans people existing does nothing negative to your life, you crybaby bitch." Below that is an "Ok" button.

In the last image, clippy is shaped like a checkmark and says "To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."

The watermark in the corner of each artwork reads "Art by emimi" with an instagram link

Showing off the Arapaima I made! (Pattern also made by me)

irl, i live alone. irl, i am disabled. irl, that intersection and my lack of interest in partnering actively makes life really hard. everything is expensive. i can't always cook when i want to or have fresh ingredients, because my symptoms don't care if I want to cut up vegetables and eat something homemade before they go bad. if I have a bad flareup and getting up is not in the cards, that's it. i have what's next to me. the lack of social support for single folks, for disabled folks, for folks whose family care is inadequate or damaging... it's impactful.

I talk about how i once visited a place with an ex partner. i mention how our relationship started because i was pressured into it, and i wasn't really into the level of seriousness and 'forever' she treated it with. everyone says it's weird that i agreed if i didn't want it to be serious. i remember being 16, saying no, and a chorus of people telling me i was stupid and immature, that her family was rich, that we would be cute and to listen to them, not my heart. my heart was saying nothing.

i look at my current age and life goals. for many of my peers, dating and marriage and eventual kids are common goals. i am watching my rights erode and trying to practice good mental hygeine. my five year goal is to be alive. my next major life milestone is a nebulous desire to find a life i can tolerate living.

being aromantic significantly impacts my day to day. i want to see aro people living their lives, and doing so with joy. i want to see aro adults making it, ones like me. i want aro people to thrive. i want to live, aromantically.