This Blog Is A Mess

applying to barista jobs in Dublin and 1 place asked me to send them a video describing my experience. the other asked me to do an ‘interview’ on camera with an ai ‘interviewer’ for them to watch later. if you cannot take the time to zoom or call me on the damn phone why would i want to work for you? these people are out of their minds

like not to be dramatique but i’m an experienced barista who will always show up on time & do my job well and with genuine enthusiasm. which would be a boon to you and i know that so you’re wild 2 think i’m gonna beg chatgpt for a chance to make latte art

There's too much going on here

a man who would go back into the closet for 15 years for you without even blinking, without even thinking there’s anything to forgive you for, fully believing all that patience and time and space and agony was completely worth it because he loves you that much and is that devoted to you. a horrible liar who spends 15 years lying because you aren’t ready to tell the truth yet. you might think that this man doesn’t exist but he does. and his name is phil lester

fr though i am genuinely so proud of dan and phil for finally trusting us with this, and i’m equally proud of the fandom for taking the steps needed to become a safe space for them over the years. as someone who’s been here for 11 years, it feels so good knowing we’ve all worked together to create space where they feel safe enough to share such a vulnerable part of their lives with us after spending so long feeling like they couldn’t. the amount of love i have for the two of them and the world they’ve created for all of us is immeasurable.

I'm genuinely just so, so happy they can finally be their freest and happiest selves. have deep and authentic friendships with other people. make content that fully expresses everything they feel and think and are because now they don't have to cut off any of the edges anymore. (or the literal core, in their case.) I'm so happy they get to live their lives now. I'm so excited to be there with them.

im so speechless. the way that nothing changes and everything changes. it doesn't matter but it so extremely does matter. it's the most normal thing in the world, and the biggest deal ever. you know.

"nothing is real atoms never touch each other youve never touched anything in your life" ok. well when i pet my dog he is soft and when he licks my hand it is wet and that is far more real to me than whatevers going on at an atomic level

what my atoms are doing is their fucking business man i'm busy trying to stop my dog from eating tissues directly out of the box

and when you put your hand on your dog the universe does not know that you are separate. the song expands to hold you both.

Feeling an incredibly weird specific nostalgia but what piece of media defined 2020 for you (as in you spent that year with it) mine is mtv's catfish