the obsession grows like fire

-when the officiant mentioned same-sex marriage getting legalized & threats to that decision (the lesbian couple sitting in front of me, not the ones getting married, was also really weeping for this one)

-i talked to that couple afterwards and one of them has an ex-wife and two children who are in high school. it just really made me think about how we're finally getting to live queer lives and begin again and do all the things everyone else gets to do. yay gay divorce ! ! !

-looking at the grey in the couple getting married's hair. they're both in their mid 50s and I... it made me see a future for myself. like. not to get too deep about it but all I ever feel for the future is worry and looking at them made me feel hope

-listening to their vows to each other. they're so clearly in love and they did their vows in the form of promises to each other and it was big stuff about commitment but also little things about listening to each other even when it's about stuff the other doesn't care about. idk it meant a lot to me.

-when I learned that the couple who was getting married met 27 years ago when one of them gave a fire torch safety demo to the jewelry making class the other was in & they stayed friends through it all until about 6 years ago when they got together. that's adorable