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Transfem self defense zine above

Good articles on transmisogyny and transmisogynoir for a more comprehensive and intersectional look at things. You can follow the author of the final one of these three (Position of Guilt: Black Hot Allostatic Load) on tumblr at @/storyweavingspider

PDF download link for an essay on transmisogynoir.

An actually good resource on transfem healthcare and HRT

A very detailed breakdown of terf rhetoric in queer spaces

Materialist analysis of gender roles that is pretty neat, I disagree with a few points in it here and there but it's interesting.

I divide my HRT into 4 loose "stages".

0-7 months (red): Tepid startup and troubleshooting with oral estradiol and spironolactone.

7mo-1yr (yellow): Switch to injecting estradiol valerate, stopped antiandrogens. Hit female blood levels. Aggressive weight loss from backpacking. Most changes happened as loss from the waist due to weight loss. Don't recommend doing it this aggressively.

1-2yrs: added progesterone. Gained all pre transition weight back plus some. Changes EXPLODED. Most overall body changes happened during this time.

2yrs-ongoing: loose time period that I'm kind of defining as the switch from the growth spurt, to ongoing maintenance and development. Some slight fluctuations and progress are happening, but things are mostly settled.

Final bra size is 38D.

And for a visual aide, here's a thirst trap some valuable data:

Larixe

Which is to say, next time you’re sucking her dick you’re going to eat her out. Seal your lips around the tip, give the underside steady pressure, tie a cherry stem. You can mix up her guard with some deepthroating, but it is absolutely crucial to the operation that you eat her new clit like an ice pop.

The first time this was done to me, I had to physically push away from my partner after half a sustained minute of the most agonizing pleasure of my life. A sustained exhalation of icy vapor over a full-body burn. You’ll know you’ve done it right when she turns into a soprano and starts hugging herself like her grip strength is the only thing stopping her from shaking apart. If it’s her first time with this kind of orgasm, you’ve just made a devotee for life.

Ah!! Thank you!! ( ˶^ᗜ^˶ ) <3

So, I actually experimented pretty hard with my dosing (some good, some bad) and have made adjustments over the years, and kept a record!!

So, the first thing I tried was using prog probably much earlier than I should have, I waited about 6 months in (which I probably wouldn't suggest), when I started to notice significant breast budding-

From there, I started with a ~100mg dose of prog rectally; The suppositories I made using some base and fish silicone molds, and I usually made it in larger batches.

Starting of budding; about 6 months in on E > 8 months on E w/ 2 on prog.

Once I started to grow further (6 months in on prog), I upped my dose as an experiment (which, I would not really suggest, but here we are-) to ~200mg a day. I saw a HUGE amount of growth over a year of consistent use WITH consistent eating.

Growth from prog starting at 8 months on E + 2 months of prog > 6 months of prog > 1 year on prog:

1 year on prog:

Then, I lowered my dose again, to ~100mg, and was consistent for about 6 more months, then started another experiment- I took a break, for about 4 months, and then got back on, then kept up, essentially, a pregnancy cycle! Which, is where you find me currently!! I've been keeping up a cycle of 9 months on, 4 months off; increasing my fat + carb intake to increase weight gain (I'm currently at ~200lbs current cycle, and I started at ~160lbs at year 0)!!

1 Add. For my weight cycle, I made sure to exercise to go down in weight, with a slight decrease in my food intake!! I noticed that my eating disorder was causing my breasts to decrease in size; so that was something I had to work on in order to keep my progress- My current diet is a carb heavy vegan diet, with seitan based proteins; primarily stir-fry w/ noodles (cheap and easy to make), limiting my soda/energy drink intake, and copious amounts of sweets- (๑•̀ヮ•́)૭✧ (I love to bake)

2 Add. I was stressed for AGES about getting my nipples pierced too early, and if it would affect my growth. I was worried for nothing, and they have grown just fine after getting pierced!! (•ᴗ<˶)✧₊ ⊹

Current results: