Not very good at reading and comprehending so let me start last
Nothing is your fault. What is your fault? You havent wronged anyone!
And no one is supposed to be able to do Everything. And that doesnt mean your incapable of doin anything! You can do it! Whith. Determination✨ and time. Everything takes time and thats ok. Id sure know cuz i use FOREVER to do anything and even then its not alot of effort put into it :’)
And first\last. I do not expect things from anyone,not in the sense that i have low expectations, but in the sense that you can do what you want and take as long as you need and ill be happy for you! Im not bothered! I understand the need of peace and a break. I never get any peace here exept for in the dead of night! And everyone gets mad at me for being up late and not helping early in the morning. I nearly despise my real name because of how often its used just when there some chore that needs to be done. Im tired of being told to “male myself useful” and i cant even be angry because i Know i can do more, i should be able to understand and to help, but i somehow fail helping others and fail helping myself and im left with all of that piling up. Which is why im still awake and it past midnight. But its quiet. Its calm. And i want to be able to to give others (you) that calm too. Of not having expectations placed upon them.
I have a friend that lives a continent away , and answeres my texts like once every two months. Still hasemt read all the texts i sent em cuz they reply with an apology for not replying to my texts and then not reply to them. I would let myself get bitten by aligators for him. Because he is my friend!
You are my friend! And friends are friends through thick and thin! Thats what friends are. Or at least thats what i am. Good luck gettin rid of me, cuz im latched on like one of those aligators i mentioned earlier! 🐊