My fangirling adventures

Remember how we got old enough to realize that people were making fun of us and not enough people told us to ignore them so we got embarrassed and we hated ourselves. Pink was our least favorite color until perhaps recently when we were neutral towards it at best.

But something in us changed when we decided we needed to see Barbie (2023). The women and girls I saw wearing their best pinks today. I purposely bought MYSELF something pink for the first time I can remember.

Archie, one must, if one has the cranial and philosophical capacity to do so, always beware of the Devil. A simple jackass can blunder through crime after crime for a lifetime, depending only on the fatuity of the police, which he might well receive, so long as he is taciturn about it. This man, this Mr. Tate, has neither the discretion nor the patience to be a criminal worth investigating since he is above all else an infantile buffoon who announced his location to the world in a fit of pique baited by a woman he himself called upon to annoy. No doubt he deserves to get arrested and tried and imprisoned but that is not the sort of work that may supply me with fee, so stop badgering me about it. One cannot focus on every charlatan of the world no more than one can count the grains of sand in it, now as to the Brassolaeliocattleya …

Damn, this story is sad.

She wanted a baby so bad she had treatment for infertility.

Now she’s pretty sure waiting so long to treat her miscarriage has left her insides so scarred and damaged and generally messed up that she can’t ever get pregnant again.

Damn, this story is sad.

She wanted a baby so bad she had treatment for infertility.

Now she’s pretty sure waiting so long to treat her miscarriage has left her insides so scarred and damaged and generally messed up that she can’t ever get pregnant again.

kim heechul when he saw sapphire blue color:

it’s super junior/ELF official fan club color 🥺💙

super junior kim heechul best boi✨

HOWEVER.

Having been in high school when Brokeback Mountain came out, I can tell you Heath and Jake took A LOT of heat for many of the scenes in it (including this one), because they WEREN’T all awkward and afraid to touch each other. They both went in with the attitude of “we’ve been hired to portray a relationship, and we’re going to do that.” I lost count of the number of times they were asked if it was weird/different to kiss another man. I think it was Jake who made the most confused face ever at the camera and kind of went “….no…..? A kiss is a kiss?” The speculation on their sexualities ran RAMPANT—at the same time that Heath started dating Michelle Williams (who played his wife, in the most positive-but-ironic turn of events ever). They literally were basically not allowed to say “queer people are people, and you don’t have to be queer to see that queer people can love and cherish each other emotionally and physically.” They did their best to do that, working against a mass media that was going “look, it’s a story about TWO MEN!! And they HAVE SEX!!! HOW FREAKY!!!”

Lawrence v Texas, the lawsuit that overturned sodomy laws that made gay sex illegal, was in 2003.

The cast was set before SCOTUS made that ruling. The film was already being planned at a time when gay sex was a crime in more than a dozen US states.

They couldn’t “get queer actors to play queer roles” because the majority of queer actors were deeply closeted, because it was a crime in a lot of places, including all of Texas and Florida. Your movie has a scene at Disneyworld? Can’t have known queer actors or they could be arrested during filming.

“but they killed people” what do you want me to do about that?

One of the predicted outcomes was someone's microphone getting cut off mid-speech. But who was it going to be? The mad man Zhang Zhehan himself? Huang Youming with his wedding table jokes? Chen Zihan with her top trending wedding edit? Gong Jun the human collander? Wang-Laoshi and his blatant RPS agenda?

Well it was none of them because it was freaking Heizi-Laoshi (Gao Chong) of all people.

It started on the first day of the concert, when the 5 Lakes Alliance uncles shocked the fandom by being the first of the cast members to crack. They wrote 老温 Lao Wen ❤️ 老周 Lao Zhou on their whiteboards and held it up behind the unsuspecting Wenzhou's heads.

On the second day of the concert, people noticed that their seats were moved to the opposite side, as far away from Wenzhou as the seating arrangements allowed.

But what Youku and the concert staff didn't know at that time is that distance does not matter in the face of a determined Heizi-Laoshi. He had a big booming voice and was certainly not afraid to use it. Unstoppable Force (Heizi-Laoshi) versus Immovable Object (Censorship)

MC: "Heizi-Laoshi is going to show us his talent!"

Heizi-Laoshi: "YES I AM GOING TO SING A SONG AS A TRIBUTE TO OUR WENZHOU'S LOVE!"

Heizi-Laoshi, after singing: "I WISH THAT THEY WILL ACCOMPANY EACH OTHER FOREVER UNTIL THEIR HAIRS TURN GRAY AND WHI-" *mic gets cut off*

MCs, desperately trying to drown out the crowd's screaming: "THANK YOU!!! THANK YOU HEIZI-LAOSHI, THANK YOU!!!!"

The only thing more impressive than Heizi-Laoshi's determination to literally scream out Wenzhou's love to the world is how casually Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun reacted to the whole thing. No embarrassment, no awkwardness. Just pure chaotic approval.

And then Huang Youming, determined not to be outdone, declares that he will be singing a song as well.

Huang Youming: "I'M GOING TO SING A SONG BY MY IDOL JAY CHOU"

MCs: "Okay!" ☺️

Huang Youming: THE TITLE OF THE SONG IS "A SECRET THAT CANNOT BE TOLD"

MCs: "HUH????"

the plot: