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a little end of 2020 spirit

just look at it

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nothing stays the same. without a moment's notice, everything can change and leave you wondering what the hell happened. living in the present and appreciating the small things is important because nothing else is guaranteed or permanent.

we humans are not as important as we believe ourselves to be. when the bee dies so do the flowers. when we die the flowers grow back. if we are to build a better future, we must give back to the planet by changing the ways we live on it.

time is not real. there is nothing in the laws of physics that can prove it is anything other than a human construct.

power of the people will always outweigh the people in power. the 1% are scared of us realising this and acting upon it.

home is more of a person than a place. the way i see my family has changed. all that other stuff i thought i wanted when the true treasure was here all along.

distance does not lessen the value or strength of true friendship.

self-care is by far the most important skill to learn in life. being aware of my needs, how things effect me, and eliminating harmful inputs has gone a long way in improving my physical and mental health.

social media does not offer an honest or healthy way in which to view the world. like a toxic friend, it uses our desires and insecurities in all sorts of manipulative ways. being able to take a step back and reconnect with the real physical world can be both invigorating and revelatory.

simple acts of kindness cost nothing but are as precious as gold dust.

eye contact has become a new form of communication. with masks hiding half of our faces we have no choice but to look at each other's souls. we see each other more now and we offer strangers in the street smiles from our eyes rather than our mouths.

being lonely doesn't mean we're alone. everyone is going through something. even if they don't show it.

laughter is the closest thing there is to magic. watery eyes, burning chests and aching ribs from laughing too much are the most wonderful feelings in the world.

Will: James said he feels unsafe.

Cecily: Well, now I feel unsafe.

Will: Oh

Magnus Bane and Alec Lightwood from The Shadowhunter Chronicles by @cassandraclare

I’m super super excited for The lost book of the white! I’m still waiting my copy aaahh. What do you expect of this book? I can’t wait for reading Malec beign the cute parents they are!

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hi everybody! july is disability pride month, which is really cool!

i am a mentally and physically disabled 22-year-old who is currently reliant on my abusive parents for healthcare, housing, and living expenses, which is not so cool! (click the link to read more about my disabilities & what i’m doing about them.)

things have been precarious for a while but unfortunately tonight (july 6th, 2020) my recently-returned-to-being-an-alcoholic father got drunk and tried to kick me out. he did not succeed, but since his alcoholism has been progressively worsening along with his abusive tendencies, i’m obviously feeling very unsafe in my living situation.

right now, i’m trying to avoid being put in an emergency situation where i am kicked out without any back-up plan or sufficient back-up funds. while i do have a little bit of money saved up, i don’t have enough to cover long-term living expenses or ongoing healthcare expenses (without medication and regular treatments i am SERIOUSLY screwed; even missing just one day of my daily IV treatments is enough to incapacitate me for the following day). ideally i’d also like enough to cover a new phone or laptop to communicate with friends, doctors, and my therapist if my parents confiscate my electronics, as they have done before.

to be honest i don’t know how or if i will manage to live on my own if i am kicked out, but i would REALLY REALLY REALLY like to know that i won’t be completely shitfucked right from the starting line.

i know we’re in the midst of a global pandemic and everyone is struggling a lot, but i’m not a very big blog and disability issues rarely get much attention, so i’m making this post while i can. it’s okay if you can’t afford to help me out financially; it would still help to reblog this post. one of the scariest things about living in this situation is feeling like no one can see me so, please, if you can do nothing else, please see me.

my paypal is paypal.me/arinitea and venmo is @arinbee! i also have a ko-fi, but it does take about $0.50 from each $3 donation. while i deeply appreciate everyone who wants to help, please DON’T donate if you cannot afford to do so safely!

i can’t offer very much but i would be DELIGHTED to send pics of my cats to anyone who donates. i will also likely be opening commissions when i am able, and you can check back here for updates.

EDIT: a wonderful and talented friend of mine is offering commissions in exchange for donations. you can find her post here!

my health has deteriorated and i am now in need of a wheelchair. since i can only lift ~20lbs, the chair must be ultra lightweight. insurance may cover some of the cost, but it will take months to get their approval and my request may be denied. therefore, i am expecting to pay the cost out of pocket.

you can find the wheelchair i want to buy, and other medical supplies i need (including a seat cushion for my wheelchair to enable me to sit in it for longer periods, and compression garments to help with joint pain and circulation) on my Amazon wishlist.

donations are accepted (and greatly appreciated) via paypal (paypal.me/arinitea), venmo @arinbee, and ko-fi. i now have a gofundme as well, plus my friend elo is still offering art commissions! i hope to raise enough to cover the cost of the wheelchair and any necessary accessories.

UPDATE: i’m getting close to my original goal but unfortunately one of my upcoming medical appointments is going to cost a lot of money ($2,000 for the initial visit and $1,000 for each follow-up). i don’t expect to raise it all but anything i do raise will go towards medical costs and transportation while i’m immobile, plus emergency food/ housing if i am kicked out during all this.