She/her. Bi. Lover of SFF. Hyperfixates on media and fandom, but this is just random fandom and things that amuse me. (Shameless thoughts over at gallavich-annise) Writer of non-fanfic SF which I hope to one day publish. Married with children. Chronically sleep-deprived.
I have posted my first fic to AO3, and my first at all in many many years.
I'm probably not the only person in the world who's been obsessed with both The Locked Tomb and Shameless, but as far as I can find it's the only crossover and I'm absolutely not surprised.
So enjoy the product of my brain worms:
I Want The Gun Back, Harrow
Harrow has stolen something. The girl who works at the neighbourhood convenience store wants it back.
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I won't stop saying it: in fanfic-writing, you make your own rules. Write whatever the fuck you want to write
Sometimes it's that you haven't written that fanfic of that genre yet because you don't have confidence in your writing talents, or you have some learning and improving to do in your writing, or you're afraid of the audience reception.
Sometimes it's also just that the said genre is not for you. Write what you're confident in and what makes you happy. It's okay to leave the rest alone.
Unless you're receiving payment to diversify and to be more creative and to "impress", you have every right to stick to your comfort zone.
Write the same fanfic five times with five different endings. Write one genre of fanfics. Write all genres ever known to man. Write for 75 fandoms. Write for one fandom. Update once a year. Update every hour. Write only 200-chaptered stories. Write only drabbles. Write the tamest stuff. Write the kinkiest stuff(tags exist for a reason). Write different love stories for one character you love. Use the same lines or words.
Do anything and everything as long as you're happy and having fun. If there are too many negative emotions(fear, self-doubt, mental stress, worry, anxiety, overthinking, etc.) attached to your writing, then you're probably taking it too seriously.
Nobody has the right to shake your fanfic-writing peace and make you doubt how great of a writer you are, not even YOURSELF or YOUR READERS. This shit is free and meant to be for fun and relaxation.
Had to scramble a bit to get this up to my usual schedule because I forgot June only has 30 days đ. But!Â
I didn't read super quick this month... Especially during the heatwave last week it was difficult to focus and I've been struggling. But I read a fair bit with the kids, still (including a few things that were rereads I haven't included), and finished a couple of things for me.Â
Cities, edited by Peter CrowtherÂ
I'm including this on a technicality because my edition was a misprint and missed out a large hunk of the China Mieville story I was most excited to read. So I'm annoyed about that and will have to seek it out elsewhere. The other three stories were okay. I liked the world of the Paul DiFillipo story but the plot didn't interest me much. I enjoyed the Geoff Ryman most of the three but I didn't *love* it. I didn't get on with the Michael Moorcock story at all... It felt like I'd have needed to work harder than I was willing to if I wanted to access the full meaning of it... I simply didn't like it enough to be bothered. That's a me problem, maybe, but it's my hobby and I'm willing to put the work into books that give me a reason to and this one didn't. Overall the collection didn't greatly inspire me but I do still really want to read the China Mieville one.
There is No Antimemetics Division by qntm
Loved this! Some brilliant and unsettling ideas about phenomena that erase memory or make it impossible or unsafe to remember them, and the Foundation who tries to contain these phenomena and protect society from them. I really enjoyed all the different Happenings, which started somewhat episodic and then led into a bigger plot.Â
My appreciation of this book was also enhanced by discovering that there are two different editions, so my ebook and the paper edition a friend lent me are different, including different ordering of events and renamed characters. I could not find any evidence of this being the case online so probably the antimemes got me. Maybe this post will redact itself. Who knows.Â
Can Socialists Be Happy by George Orwell
I've read one or two of George Orwell's essays before, but this was the first big collection. Unfortunately this edition didn't include the original dates of the essays, which would have provided some useful context. Nonetheless the collection had some interesting entries and I appreciated it, if not enjoyed (because a lot of it was terribly depressing). The titular essay was the one I've been thinking most about since... It's not really asking the question if socialists can be happy so much as asking if socialism can define what "success" means in terms other than absence. Like we want an end to war and poverty and inequality, but what does the world look like when we achieve that. Mostly it came down to fictional utopias seeming incredibly bland. It was interesting and well worth reading, but as I say several of the essays were just depressing.Â
And with the kids I read:Â
The Arctic Fox by Holly Dean
A cute little story about a visit to Lapland and a slightly mystical encounter with an arctic fox. Nothing that set me on fire but I enjoyed reading it with my kid.Â
The Voyage of the Dawn Treader by CS Lewis
I must have read this before but I remembered basically nothing about it, so it was very fun to reread with my eldest. Definitely better than I remembered it being, but it turns out I only really remember the first three books.Â
In addition I am currently reading:Â
Light from Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki (should finish this by next month)Â
He Who Drowned the World by Shelley Parker-Chan
Clariel by Garth Nix
The Silver Chair by Garth Nix
And youngest has decided to give Matilda another go... We'll see if she likes it better this time.
i had a dream last night that the entire world used a currency (?) called angrypennies which as the name implies are obtained by experiencing anger. the stronger and more intense your anger was, the more angrypennies you'd gain. an all-consuming rage would earn you more than a slight irritation, etc. so people were always searching for ways to fuel their anger and purposefully keeping themselves angry all the time because they wanted to earn angrypennies. unclear if angrypennies could be exchanged for goods and services, or if they were just a collectible.
anyway, as if this wasn't heavy-handed enough, at one point british comedian greg davies appeared and explained that angrypennies couldn't be worth feeling angry all the time. this was a real revelation to dream-me and i was finally able to break free of the angrypenny grind and allow myself to experience emotions other than anger.
it goes without saying that i will be using the word angrypenny as if it was part of the common vernacular instead of a term that my dreaming brain conjured up i.e. "he's all about the angrypennies" (derogatory way to refer to a guy who searches for reasons to be angry and possibly lacks introspection)
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So apparently, over the summer, Quibi (the shortest-lasting streaming service ever lmao) did a quarantine project called âHome Movie: The Princess Brideâ where a bunch of celebrities recreated The Princess Bride in tiny chunks at home.
And like there was no permanent cast, all these celebrities seem to have gotten a scene or part of a scene to do (iâm not sure exactly, I did not ever watch Quibi and thus havenât seen this yet), and then they just⌠recreated it as best they could. At home. Under quarantine.
So like, you had Jennifer Garner in a blanket cape playing Princess Buttercup AND the Booing Old Woman with a crowd comprised entirely of stuffed animals:
Or Taika Waititi paying Westley off a badly-drawn Inigo on a piece of cardboard held in front of someoneâs face:
And itâs all just delightful.
But my absolute favorite part of this thing that Iâve sadly never seen but assume is probably absolutely hilarious and a treasure and I want to find it some day and watch the whole thing⌠is that Carey Elwes is in it.
In case you need a comfort watch and because Youtube search nowadays sucks rancid farts, I remind you of the Princess Bride Home Movie from the lockdown, starring everybody
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So funny story actually. One of my friends was hooking up with this girl, they were friends with benefits. She needed a date for some work party so he agreed to go with her. Turns out her dad owns like 3 dental practices and she worked as the business manager for one of them.
Anyway my friend had some not so nice teeth and during dinner the father of his fwb was like âyou work where you work, you sleep with him and his teeth look like that? Get him an appointment.âand then bounced. So his fwb made him an appointment at the practice she managed and my friend ended up needing like 3k worth of dental work and his friend with benefits just gave it to him for free.
So that is the story of how my friend not only got sex, but dental out of the friends with benefits deal.
one of the hardest things to learn as a depressed former Gifted Kid⢠is that half-assed is better than nothing. take the 50%, 40%, even 20% job. scrubbing your face is better than not taking a shower at all. picking up your clothes is better than never cleaning. nibbling on some bread is better than starving.
DO THINGS HALFWAY. NOW YOUâRE 100% BETTER OFF THAN YOU WERE BEFORE.
One of my college professors used to say âanything worth doing is worth doing poorly.â I didnât understand that for years because I didnât do anything poorly, I couldnât do anything poorly, I had to Do Everything Perfectly.
But brushing your teeth for 30 seconds is better than not brushing them at all when that 2 minutes seems exhausting. Doing ten minutes of yoga is better than 10 minutes of sitting when 30 minutes of cardio sounds impossible. Changing my clothes is good when a whole shower is impossible. Standing on the porch for a few minutes is worth it after being in the house for three straight days because I donât have the energy to go anywhere.
Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly⌠because doing it poorly is better than not doing it.
You must understand that perfectionism isnât striving for excellence, itâs a crippling fear of being flawed and therefore worth abandonment or punishment. Itâs a kind of psychological avoidance. Youâre avoiding fear and failure , not embracing the thing you want to do bc if it was about the thing you want to do youâd be fine with partial victory.
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Something that gave H.P. Lovecraft nightmares is the work of my favorite artist. In "At the Mountains of Madness" he specifically mentions "the strange and disturbing Asian paintings of Nicholas Roerich."
Plz someone take Lovecraft's monsters and elder gods and convert them into non-frightening versions that happen to mostly match the original descriptions.
I've seen plenty of "cute" Lovecraftian critters, but they were all cute-ified versions of obvious horrors, not "...actually this thing looks like... a dog. With some feathers" or whatever.