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attachment theory, chapter 22
The Wayhaven Chronicles
Nate Sewell/Holland Townsend
rated M
Excerpt:
You looked very far away.
He had been. He was still, maybe. He stood by the counter, watching the steam rise from the mugs of steeping tea, and tried to pull himself back from the future in which heâd been trespassingâone where this time together, this easy domesticity, was not a temporary reprieve, but rather a permanent state of being. One where her boots were always by the door, the lingering scent of her perfume a faint constant in the air; one in which the quiet rhythms of their lives had merged into a single, shared composition.
It was a dangerous kind of daydream, he knew. A beautiful, treacherous landscape to get lost in, full of mirages and false horizons. Because the truth of it was, he still didn't quite know if she wanted the same things he did. He knew she loved him: of that, he had no doubt. But he also knew how wary she still could be, how carefully she guarded the most vulnerable parts of herself, including the capacity to keep herself to herself. She had let him in, yes, had given him pieces of herself he suspected sheâd never given anyone else. But there were still rooms she kept locked, doors she would only open a crack. And he couldnât blame herâhe had his own locked doors, rooms he rarely let himself even walk past. He couldnât begrudge her hers.
Still. He couldnât help the wanting.
attachment theory, chapter 22
The Wayhaven Chronicles
Nate Sewell/Holland Townsend
rated M
Excerpt:
You looked very far away.
He had been. He was still, maybe. He stood by the counter, watching the steam rise from the mugs of steeping tea, and tried to pull himself back from the future in which heâd been trespassingâone where this time together, this easy domesticity, was not a temporary reprieve, but rather a permanent state of being. One where her boots were always by the door, the lingering scent of her perfume a faint constant in the air; one in which the quiet rhythms of their lives had merged into a single, shared composition.
It was a dangerous kind of daydream, he knew. A beautiful, treacherous landscape to get lost in, full of mirages and false horizons. Because the truth of it was, he still didn't quite know if she wanted the same things he did. He knew she loved him: of that, he had no doubt. But he also knew how wary she still could be, how carefully she guarded the most vulnerable parts of herself, including the capacity to keep herself to herself. She had let him in, yes, had given him pieces of herself he suspected sheâd never given anyone else. But there were still rooms she kept locked, doors she would only open a crack. And he couldnât blame herâhe had his own locked doors, rooms he rarely let himself even walk past. He couldnât begrudge her hers.
Still. He couldnât help the wanting.
"Make me." Adam bites back, his fangs flashing in the sterile shine of the overhead lights and upon hearing his retort, Nate feels his own muscles tense up, his fingers tremble with the vehement need for slaughter.
"I'm not going to repeat myself, du Mortain."
"And I'm not going to move, Sewell."Â
"Do not test my patience. You either leave, now, on your own, or I'll make you."
"As if you could." The subtle shift in du Mortain's expression tells Nate that the other man wishes to spit at the ground beneath his feet but finds a semblance of restraint before doing so, as if the strict rules and protocol around contamination had more say in du Mortain's behaviour than Nate's thinly veiled threats ever could.
Nate doesn't respond to du Mortain's derision, knowing that, at this point, doing so would be a waste of time, instead taking a step with an intent to sharpen his claws and rip out the other man's spine but before he can do just so, the beeping of the electrocardiogram, which has previously faintly echoed around the room, halts him in his steps. It is louder now, much louder, its rhythm accelerated, when it was very much unhurried but a moment prior...
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Without spoiling anything (but you know lol), Daphne is really concerned about Kent in the aftermath of the events of Mind Blind, and the matchmaking is part of her trying to do everything she can to make sure he's okay. (Other things she is doing: bringing SO MANY baked goods [including dog treats]; inviting Kent to dinner with her and Nick; joining Kent on dogwalks; etc.) In the end I think the matchmaking is a joint effort between her and Glitch (in both the Graphne and Glitchne universes, but probably starts a little sooner in the Glitchne universes).
I also don't think Kent really wants to be matchmade lol so I don't know how far it goes. I haven't figured out the balance between Kent feeling like Glitchne are trying to get rid of him vs Kent deciding [maybe with Glitch's bribery or blackmail] to just do it for Daphne and/or for Glitch. Maybe Kent will tolerate some not-so-secret double/triple dates (Glitch is NOT subtle about what he's trying to do and Gray is a bad liar) (also side quest in the Graphne universe: find Glitch someone to date) but not beyond that.
As for the viability of the pairings I mentioned (Kent and Sally, Kent and Stephanie, Kent and Gray):
I think any of these pairings would work (but Daphne's reasons are more "These are some of the best people I know of course they should fall in love and be happy and nobody else deserves them") (she doesn't feel as strongly about Stephanie lol but Stephanie is nice and also needs to stop being so obsessed with her brother).
Kent and Sally. First, I have to point you to this very cute ficlet (Sally doodles on Kent's cast after he's injured in a mock assignment).
They're opposites in a lot of ways which complement each other. Sally craves color, Kent is more bleak; Sally is dramatic and artsy and persuasive, Kent is reserved and has a hard time expressing himself; Sally is a precog who wants to be valued for more than her powers, and Kent is not a Ment who has spent his time showing he's just as capable (if not more so) than other AMOs; Sally is competitive, and Kent is pretty chill. (I think a lot of these complementary qualities are also true of Kent and Glitch; so I think they'd do well together and even that Kent would be drawn to her the way he's drawn to Glitch platonically.)
And they have a lot of similarities. They're both loyal and love their (somewhat difficult) pets [I think this is actually kind of KEY]. I think they're both intense in kind of different ways (Sally more outwardly so, Kent more quietly) (idk if I explained that well, but see the fic lol). There's that ask that says Kent WAS a crybaby before his mom died and Sally IS a crybaby; maybe Sally can awaken those emotions that Kent keeps under the surface.
(The biggest problem I can foresee for them is that Kent isn't great with words and Sally can be both sensitive and bad at picking up other people's emotions, which I think means there may be many misunderstandings in their future.)
Kent and Stephanie. We don't know that much about Stephanie, but (vaguely, because spoilers) if Stephanie learned about what happened during Operation Hemera, I think she could easily develop a crush on slash be president of a fan club for Nox (similar to her crush on Justice). Is this enough to sustain an actual relationship with Kent? Maybe not lol.
Kent and Gray. Look if I'm saying that Daphne and Kent have a lot in common, then why not throw Kent and Gray together? Kent is such a sweetie under his stoic exterior and I could see Gray being so charmed by that. Plus, Kent would be so good at flustering Gray (and would have so much fun doing so). I think they might have some interesting commonalities re: the end of Mind Blind (vague because of spoilers).
Also imagine with me a universe where Gray is the one who knocks (politely) on Kent's door to save the puppies while Button takes the subway; and Gray is the one who has a filled-with-romantic/sexual-tension training session with Kent.
(Also why not Kent and Glitch? Because if they were going to happen they would have happened. Graphne!Daphne might suggest it, but it gets pretty quickly shut down by Glitch.)
I got tagged by @mornynge. Thank you so much for tagging me!! I won't be able to work on 'blue' a sequel to 'pink' until part 2 of the comafic is done, but have a bit of it right now
Erin's stare did not falter when Morgan's met it. She was never a woman so easily cowed, even when she should back down.
"I have to protect people. She was defenseless."
"And Farah wasn't?"
The words burned. Erin wanted to scream, she wanted to shout. It wasn't fair! It wasn't fair that she had to make a choice at all. That she was in this situation. Every part of her had been protesting, telling her she was making a mistake.
What if that was the last time she saw her? What if she was the only one who could have kept her safe? Kept her alive? Farah's pleading face was imprinted into her brain, mocking her. Reminding her that in that moment Farah couldn't defend herself either.
She had to do the right thing. Even when it broke her heart.
"No. I trusted that she would be okay."
"Do you really believe that?"
I have to.
"Yes."
I am not sure who to tag so take this as an open call to say I tagged you!!!
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Thank you so much for the ask đđ I'll also respond to @agentnatesewell's questions here!
16. What is something about your OC that can make you cry?Â
I'd say that it's multiple things (Yves just has that effect one me, he's my tragic boy) but if I had to pick, I'd say that it's the complicated relationship he has with intimacy, especially around the events of "The Winter Chapters" and later, during the events of "Me and You (and Him)". I've been writing more about this part of him recently, as Yves actually speaks with Nate about it as some point and the way it actually made me weep, it's not even funny!
18. What is the most recent thing youâve discovered about your OC?Â
Two things! One of them is low key nsfw so I'm not going to disclose it now but the other is the fact that he's sing to himself when alone!
19. What is your favorite fact about your OC?
It'll always and forever be the fact that he wanted to be a professional hockey player when he was younger. Sometimes I think about an AU where he fulfils that dream and now Unit Bravo are forced to protect a semi famous hockey player who has no chill and has games to win, lmao
hi I don't want to get into it and I'm not like in a Horrible Spot, just a terribly rough patch so if anyone has a couple bucks to spare I've added my kofi to my pinned and the link is also here and I would really appreciate it. tyđ«¶
Decided to take advantage of the open tag offer from @asukatoshipiled and share something from "Me and You (and Him)" đ
Who's ready for Chapter Four? I'm not! I mean, I am but also :^)
I missed you, he says, his fingers trembling in anticipation of what's to come. I missed us, he says, his dark-brown eyes gazing at him with such intensity, it's almost as if Yves were looking right up into the sky and into an ongoing eclipse.
He can't lie, not to the man who now stands before him, not to himself, he missed them as well, he missed the fragile serenity they used to have and this relationship which made him so joyful. A part of him wishes to lose himself in Nate's arms completely, the other, however, tugs at his already fragile mind, asking if perhaps he forgot about something or someone...
He didn't forget.
How could he?
Tagging @blu-ewraith, @agentnatesewell, @thee-morrigan, @nevira-names, @hanna-writess, @turtleybeachin, @carriehobbs, @serenpedac, @wayhavenots, @fadingprotagonists, @vryptidart, @ohmypawsandwhiskers and whoever else would like to do this. No pressure, of course đ
happy birthday teddy!!! how is she celebrating her birthday this year??
Thank you Hobbs đ„° also @agentnatesewell because you asked too đ„°
Nick bought her tickets to a baseball game and she's there with Kenna. They smooch on the kiss cam and almost get kicked out (not for the smooch, which does get a little out of hand, but for Teddy yelling pretty aggressively at the ref).
I think when they get back to Kenna's place, there is a surprise party! Including Nick, John, Hope, Sally, and Glitch. (Gray too maybe? I haven't decided how close they are.) The first party event is a parlor room type scene where Teddy explains how she KNEW they were planning a surprise party for her.
Teddy kicks them all out at a certain time because Kenna looks like she's getting overwhelmed (and Kenna has already sacrificed a lot of comfort for Teddy's enjoyment today) (which will be rewarded).
Ragebaiting A du Mortain 101: Detective tells them they trained with another unit and it was more productive and efficient. Bonus points if it's Unit Alpha
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Ava has never pressed close to her, she has never slipped her arms around her waist, she has never cupped her jaw and hold her breath, she has never been the first one to lean in, she has never been the one to touch their lips together and sigh against her mouth.
No. Vesper has always been the one to kiss Ava.
And she is kind of exhausted by it.
It's raining heavily outside, thundering in the distance, but she is standing under an oak tree in her thin slip dress, shivering and soaked through, the red fabric clinging to her body like another skin.
She sees a flash of bright white lightning among the ominous almost-black clouds, but refuses go inside the Warehouse to warm up and get a change of clothes.
Simply because she is tired of not getting what she wants. She knows it's not fair, it's not right, but these kinds of feelings seldom are. Which is infuriating in itself.
So, she stands there a long time. For so long that a figure comes to stand beside her, silent in their waiting. Vesper hates silence. It makes her feel anxious. She craves noise, she needs it to ground herself and not get too lost in her thoughts â to not to get lost in the black ink shrouding them.
"You should not stand under a tree during a thunderstorm," Ava finally says quietly.
Vesper wipes a tear from her face before turning to look at her. Ava is holding a see-through umbrella over her head and is looking at Vesper with a serious expression.
Vesper would ordinarily roll her eyes, but she feels too raw to do it now, so instead she says nothing and just looks at her. Ava looks worried, a frown creasing the space between her brows.
"What do you want, Ava?"
Ava considers the question for a good while. "To make sure you are safe," she answers finally, a pained expression in her jade coloured eyes. "I always want to make sure you are safe. Nothing else matters as much as that."
Vesper sniffs.
"I also wanted to apologize," she adds. "I know you wish to â" She stops. "I know you want me to â" She stops again and sighs deeply. "I am sorry, Vesper Louise."
Vesper feels ridiculous, stupid in her longing. "It's not your fault," she says, almost choking on the words. In time she will hopefully learn to mean it.
"I am afraid I have given you the wrong impression," Ava answers, and Vesper can feel the way her heart stutters to a complete stop. She can't fucking breathe, so she says nothing.
Then Ava continues, unaware of the way Vesper's whole body has turned into pure ice, "The wrong impression being," she says very slowly, "that I do not want or desire you."
She pauses. "I do. Want you. And I do not know what to do with the feeling. I do not know how to make it all right. I do not know how to feel this way without being so frightened that I will feel like I am crumbling to dust every moment I spend with you."
She turns to look at Vesper, almost pleading. Vesper feels like she has never seen this woman beside her before. Maybe it's true and she never has.
Ava takes a hesitant step towards her. Her hand lingers in the air, before she is so close that she touches Vesper's damp face.
"I am frightened," Ava murmurs softly, "that this is all a dream and I will soon wake up and you are gone. I am frightened I will be alone in the dark again."
Vesper grips her wrist, fingernails digging into the soft pale meat, leaving crescents behind.
"I want all of you," Vesper says and Ava nods. "Half isn't enough."
"Forgive me," Ava whispers and then finally leans down to kiss her, the umbrella, forgotten, dropping to the wet ground.
The wind and rain beats down their shaking bodies, but neither of them wants to be anywhere else in the world.
Thank you @/fauville for the wonderful idea I shamelessly stole for this tory!
It's a silly little thing about Ava and Grace, so I won't bother you with a proper header or title
teen and up, established relationship, 1000 words
Ava knew that what she said last night wasnât wrong. More so, the words were exceptionally fitting for the moment, and she still believed it. Then why did she feel a pang of guilt when she looked at Grace, who peacefully drank coffee while sitting across the table from her? Was it because that morning Grace was completely silent after she let out a polite greeting? Was it because her expression was so very neutral in a way it never was before? Grace was full of emotions, and it showed in everything she did, but that morning there was nothing. Ava was ashamed to admit it, but she was relieved that Grace let her into her apartment and didnât shut the door in her face.
âFor how long am I supposed to withstand this silent treatment?â Ava asked, trying to hide her frustration. Grace would always be the one to lead a conversation between them, and trying to poke into the silence she created felt wrong, but what else was Ava supposed to do when she needed to see something - anything - to make sure they were alright?
To her question, Grace simply lifted her eyes at Ava and swirled the coffee in her mug again before taking a sip that was followed by silence. Why did she have to make it this hard?
âGraceâŠâ Avaâs hand slipped across the table, about to grasp Graceâs palm in a gentle grasp, before Grace sharply pulled her hand away.
âAgent Warren is fine,â Grace spoke with venom in her words. âSince weâre so hung up on titles these days.â
Of course, she would only speak to remind Ava about her mistake. As if trying to torture her, Grace leaned back in the chair, allowing Ava to see the thin satin fabric of her pajama tank top strain against her chest. Ava didnât want to stare, but how could she stop herself when Grace was always so tempting?
âYou canât possibly still be mad at me. I was simply trying to keep you away from danger. Because I care about you.â
Avaâs pleading only made the situation worse â from neutral, Graceâs expression turned to a frown as she looked at her.
âAnd Iâm so very grateful for it, Commanding Agent,â her words were filled with sarcasm, but Ava was willing to take that if it meant there would be no more silence between them. âHow could I, a mere human, figure out whatâs dangerous for me if it wasnât for your endless wisdom? I meant what I said, from this moment on, Iâll be following all of your orders, since thatâs what you want from me.â
When they entered the relationship, Ava foolishly hoped that it would be the end of their fighting and the frustration that came with it. She shouldâve known better. If she knew that reminding Grace that she was her Commanding Agent and that she had to follow orders would result in this situation, she wouldâve picked a different approach, but it was too late.
âThat is not what I want from you,â at times, it was impossible to deal with Graceâs stubbornness. âIs it so wrong of me to want to keep you safe?â
âItâs not about what you did, and you know it,â Graceâs irritation was coming to the surface, and witnessing it was still much better than her staying neutral and cold. âItâs about how you did it! We share a bed every night, and you acted as if it was nothing and Iâm just some fucking intern who doesnât know what theyâre doing. Weâve been together on enough missions for you to know that Iâm not careless when it matters. So please, forgive me for acting frustrated when you use your fucking title to push me around.â
Grace looked hurt as she crossed her arms on her chest and looked at the table, avoiding Avaâs gaze.
âYou are right, I shouldnât haveâŠâ the apology didnât come out right, mostly because Grace completely ignored it by getting up and making her way to the kitchen sink, where she loudly washed her mug. Her back looked stiff when Ava looked at her. She couldnât stand it any longer. She wanted things to go back to normal, she wanted Grace to joke and flirt with her as she always did. Ava didnât realize how good she had it until she lost it. But she wasnât about to give up on their reconciliation.
Ava stood behind Grace and put her arms around Graceâs middle, pressing their bodies together. Ava felt her go still, but she didnât give up on her plan. She kissed the back of Graceâs neck, over the ink of her tattoo, before moving to her shoulder. There was nothing Ava loved more than holding Grace like this, inhaling her smell, feeling her heartbeat so close.
âI was wrong,â Ava avoided saying those words to anyone for centuries, but she was willing to say and to promise much more if it meant Grace would stop being mad at her. At least she didnât try to push her away yet. âWhat can I do to earn your forgiveness?â
These words, these actions shouldâve made Ava feel weak and pathetic, but she felt none of those emotions. She was willing to do anything for Grace, it was simply a fact, one she was helpless against.
âOne might think itâs inappropriate for my Commanding Agent to touch me like this,â teasing returned to Graceâs tone as she looked back at Ava. âSince you have so much power over me.â
âYouâre well aware itâs not true. Youâre the one who can undo me with a single word,â for some unknown reason, admitting that didnât feel scary. And hearing Graceâs laugh felt like a good enough reward for that.
She turned around in Avaâs arms, their faces almost touching. Ava never felt so grateful to see Graceâs smile.
âThatâs a little too dramatic for this early in the morning, donât you think?â Ava felt arms wrap around her neck, while the tip of Graceâs nose brushed against hers. âI shouldâve made you work harder for my forgiveness, but Iâm too weak when it comes to you.â
Ava couldnât help but smile at her admission. âAt least it means weâre weak for each other.â
Grace pulled Ava closer, kissing her exactly the way Ava needed it. It felt right and too wonderful for her to be able to think about anything else but the woman in her arms and how happy Grace was making her.