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Chapter 2: Where Did I Put That? Nope, It’s Gone

Chapter 3: Why Being Bored Is Literally The Same As Dying

Chapter 4: ADD And Your Love Life: Why Bother?

Chapter 5: A Short Story I Drew About A Little Rabbit Named Herbert Who Goes On Adventures

Chapter 6: I Don’t Have Time To Not Be Photoshopping

Chapter 7: You Interrupted Me in the Middle of Tetris And Other Reasons I’ll Be Making Your Life A Sulky Hell All Day 

Chapter 16: Will My Employer Believe Me When I Let Them Know I Have a Learning Disability and Mental Illness or Will They Keep Assuming That I Don’t Care Enough About My Job To Listen to Instructions the First Time

Chapter 17: Thank God You’re Here to Argue With Me that I Don’t Have This Diagnosis Invented to Explain Why Small Children are Fidgety. Oh Good, You Have Examples of Times I was Productive and Calm

Chapter 18: That Was Hilarious, Please Tell Me More Stories of Times I Couldn’t Figure Out Something That Was Common Sense

Chapter 19: Goodnight Sweet Book I’ll Never Finish

Chapter 20: I Couldn’t Do It Right The First Time I Tried, Burn the Evidence 

Chapter 21: I Could Say Something, or I Could Say it in My Head Where No One Will Hear it if the Words or Syllables are in the Wrong Order, Assuming I’m Using The Correct Words At All Instead of Mismatching Them

Chapter 24: “Just Do It” Well Fuck Why Didn’t I Think of That. Goddamn Genius Doctor Superman Over Here.

Chapter 29: Why You Never Turn In Homework

Chapter 30: I Would Write Study Tips But I Literally Once Procrastinating Studying For Finals By Putting Sticky Tabs In My Math Book Instead Of Actually Studying

Chapter 31: Maintaining Relationships

Is Difficult

Chapter 36: Did That Happen Yesterday or Three Years Ago?

Chapter 37: Did That Actually Happen or Was It A Dream?

Chapter 38: I Went Three Months in the Dark Because I Forgot the Lightbulb Was Broken Until I Needed It at Night.

Chapter 39: I Need a List to Tell Me What to Write a List For.

Chapter 41: My Homework Feels Impossible So I’m Going To Research ADHD Study Tips

Chapter 42: I Learned Some Helpful Things And I’m Angry At The Educational System

Chapter 43: To Protest The Educational System, I Refuse To Do My Work

Chapter 44: How To Rant To Neurotypicals About How School IS Actually Designed To Kill Me

Chapter 45: How To Explain That ADHD Symptoms Are Not Just Excuses To Get Out of Doing Work Because They Sure Do Sound Like It When You List Them All Out

Chapter 46: What To Do If The Learning Disability That I Have Been Diagnosed With And Seeking Treatment For The Last 9 Years Is Fake

Chapter 47: I Am Actually Just A Neurotypical Who Is Lazy, Stupid, And Unable to Practice Basic Self Care

Chapter 48: I Am Stupid, But Not For Those Reasons! (Spoiler; the fact that I can easily focus on a random task for upwards of 15 hours to avoid one other 15 minute task is not Normal)

Chapter 50: So This IS Why I Can Do Advanced Calculus But Still Have To Count On My Fingers When I Add

Chapter 51: I Have Classwork For Class I Don’t Like, How To Spend Way Too Much Time On The Work For The Class I Have A Personal Interest In And Call It Productivity

Chapter 52: I Have Work For Class I Am Interested In But It Has A Deadline Soon; How To Spend Way Too Much Time On The Work For The Class I Don’t Like And Call It Good Time Management

Chapter 53: I Turned In Crappy Work For The Class I Am Interested in and I Just Know The Teacher Hates Me

Chapter 54: Double Trouble! I Now Have a Mental Block for ALL of My Classes Because I Got a Mediocre Grade on The Project for My Favorite Class

Chapter 55: I Cant Remember A Single Time I Have Ever Been Productive In My Life

Footnote: I just remembered the time I was most productive in my life and I will now use it to judge myself for the foreseeable future

Chapter 56: How To Rewatch Your Comfort TV Show And Other Ways to Avoid And Disassociate From Reality

Chapter 57: Why Do I Only Remember My Academic Stress When I Stop Consuming Media

Chapter 58: Why I Only Stop Consuming Media Right Before I Try To Go To Bed

Chapter. 59: My Brain Isn’t Working Anymore It Is Broken, The True Cause of Me Missing Assignments

Chapter 60 : How To Realize that the Effects of Stress Related Sleep Deprivation May Be The Real Cause of Brain Fog

Chapter 61: I Just Realized I Haven’t Eaten In 2 Days

Footnote: Time to forget you were writing in first person for the first half of this :)

Chapter 62: Dedicate Your Life To Self Care and Eat 7 Meals in a Single Day and Then Sleep For 12 Hours

Chapter 63 : How To Stop Hyperfocusing On Food

Chapter 64: Cured! How To Have Total Faith That You Are Capable of Turning Your Life Around Right Now

Footnote 1: Giving Up If You Have A Mild Inconvenience and Going Back At Chapter 55

Chapter 65: How To Research Habits of Productive Neurotypicals To Adjust To Your New Disability Free Lifestyle

Chapter 66: How To Plan Your New Future Goals Based on What Genius Neurotypicals Can Do

Chapter 67: Trying The “Just Focus and Get it Done Method”

Chapter 68: Baby Steps; How To Just Start a Task To Launch Your Bright New Future

Chapter 69: Baby Steps; How To Just Start a Task

Chapter 70: Baby Steps; How To Just Start

Chapter 71: Please Start I Am Begging You

Chapter 72 : Baby Steps; Where To Start

Chapter 73: How To Make A To Do List of A Semesters Worth of Overdue Work

Chapter 74: How To Reward Yourself For Taking The First Step Towards A New You By Scrolling On Social Media for 4 Hours

Chapter 75: How To Get Yourself To Look At Your To Do List

Chapter 76: How To Pick Something From Your To Do List

Chapter 77 : How To Estimate Time To Complete Each Item On Your To Do List

Chapter 78: Handy Chart of How Many Hours In A Day, Week, And Minimum Hours of Sleep Needed To Survive.

Chapter 79: How to Do Addition: When Things Aren’t Adding Up The Way You Thought They Would

Chapter 80 : Acknowledge Limitations

Chapter 81: Finally Ask For Help

Chapter 82: How To Describe Executive Dysfunction and RSD Without Sounding Lazy and Sensitive

Chapter 83 : Get The Small Amount of Help That Our Educational System Is Willing to Give

Chapter 84: I Got Accommodations For Extra Time On Assignments and Now I Have to Do All Of My Midterms and Finals in One Week

Chapter 85: I Got Them Done in a Total of 20 Hours But Have Not Slept In 3 Days

Chapter 86 : I Got Good Grades But All I Feel Is Dread and Imposter Syndrome

Chapter 87: Winter Break! How to Have Fun While You Feel A Constant Tension In Your Back That Feels Like Impending Doom

Chapter 88 : Visiting Home; How To Relax and Just Agree When Your Parents Tell You That You Could Do Anything If You Just Had Self Discipline And Applied Yourself

Chapter 89: Visiting Old Friends; How to Keep Friendships For Years Despite Never Remembering To Reach Out To Them

Chapter 90: Holidays! Enjoy a Early Midlife Crisis When Your Relatives Ask You What You Want To Do After College Because You Truly Forgot To Think About Your Life Goals For the Last 6 Months

Chapter 91: Going Back, How To Realize On The Way Back To College When You Don’t Have Wifi That You Don’t Have Your Classes Fully Figured Out For This Semester

Chapter 92 : How to Walk Through An Entryway and Forget Any Realizations You Just Made

Chapter 93: If You Can Believe It, You Can Do It! How to 100% Believe You Will Change All of Your ADHD Habits At The Start of Every Semester

Footnote 2: Time to write your quarterly lengthy tumblr post to procrastinate during midterms and finals during the 5 hrs that you have allotted for sleep

Footnote 3: What to do when you realize the post you made meets the wordcount of the essay you are avoiding

- “Dysphoria” is just the opposite of “euphoria”. It doesn’t have to mean gender dysphoria. Lots of things can cause different kinds of dysphoria - PMDD is Pre-Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder (which is like PMS but much more severe, and causes intense depression and mood swings). Or, in this case, RSD - Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria

- When it’s mentioned at all, it’s almost always in relation to ADHD. (And it tends to be described as “this is exclusive to ADHD” but I don’t think that’s actually true.) It’s also a thing with C-PTSD and BPD. (And probably more. But a lot of this stuff co-occurs with ADHD so like …  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

- I suspect it’s actually more of a trauma thing that’s exacerbated by ADHD. (A lot of the way people respond to ADHD is inherently traumatic. Being told your whole life “Well you could do the thing if you really wanted to” when no, you actually CAN’T, etc, has the same effects as emotional abuse and gaslighting on your self-esteem. And well. Being shunned for your whole childhood for being too loud/too weird/etc tends to … yeah.)

- Just being insecure or even anxious isn’t the same as Rejection-Sensitive Dysphoria. RSD - to me, at least - feels like being slapped or getting stabbed in the chest. It’s going from “Everything’s pretty much fine” to, upon a mild correction, being “I’m the worst. I should die. Nothing will ever ever get better.“  And even when I rationally know that’s not true, I’m having physiological responses that I can’t just turn off. (It’s a lot like an emotional flashback in that regard, honestly.)  You’re responding to the thing as if it’s a threat.

The problem comes in when you start connecting things that you don’t need to connect, like “mild displeasure” with “OH GOD EVERYONE HATES ME” or “I feel a little crummy” with “I AM THE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD”.

So when we’re talking about Life Skills/ADLs, you gotta use that power to make your life easier, not harder. You gotta connect things when it makes your life better and NOT do it when it makes your life harder. 

Here’s an example of the habits: 

I had a stretch of time where I was too sick to do much of anything. I could barely get out of bed to get to the bathroom. I was walking with a stick and generally just… le dead. And one of the problems I had was that I could almost never remember to take my morning meds. 

I decided that the first time I got up to use the bathroom every day, I’d take my meds. That way I was taking them no matter how crap I felt- I had to get up to pee, like it or not- and it was getting done pretty early in the morning. 

Getting up to pee meant taking my meds; they were the same thing. I didn’t have to remember to take my meds separately, or set an alarm to remind myself, or anything like that. I just did it as part of something I had to do anyway.

As time went on and I started getting better, I realized I could do the same thing with other parts of my routine. If you connect something you need to do with something you have to do, the thing you need to do gets done.

So like… say I’m already in the habit of getting up to take a shower. I’ve lived in crappy apartments my entire life, so the water takes a minute to warm up. Since my countertop dishwasher is right outside my bathroom door, I’ll take a second to empty and load the dishwasher while the water’s still heating up. It just becomes part of the routine of taking a shower. 

You don’t have to think about Doing The Extra Thing. Connecting it to something you’re already doing means that, after a certain point, it just… happens, automatically.

 The problem comes in when you start trying to do this with tasks- things that you only have to get done once, that already have a fair few steps to them. Especially if that task is has a lot of steps, has a time limit, or is otherwise Hard for you. 

Figuring out tasks with dependencies (I have to do this before I can do this!) is already hard for us ADHDers. Sometimes what happens is that you bundle two tasks together- you decide you can’t do something until you’ve done the other thing, even though these tasks are in no way connected. 

Here’s an example: 

I have three packages I need to mail. One of them is a gift for a friend in Australia, which costs a lot of money; one of them is a package for my Etsy store which is Not Finished Yet, and one is a very late Christmas package. 

I might decide, “hey, I need to mail all three of these packages together! I can’t mail any of these packages until I bundle all of them!” But it’s probably smarter to mail them separately! I don’t want to make my friend with the late Christmas package wait any more, so I can mail that first, and then mail the Australia package when I have the money and the Etsy package when it’s finished. 

But if I insist that I have to bundle these tasks… I won’t get any of them done. I’ll be too stressed out about the Etsy package not being done to mail the other two packages, and then I will run out of money for the Australia package, and the Christmas package will not get sent til Labour Day.

Me: but distractions

Partner: I have removed them

Me: but have you considered this?

Me: but distractions

Partner: I have removed them

Me: but have you considered this?

sudden idea! i'll just take a quiiick little detour and be riiight back...(spoiler: you never return)

i know i am distracted. i wish i wasn't doing what i'm doing either, but i can't stop. i'm trapped and i can see the clock ticking down, but i just. can't. move.

july 5, 2020

it's officially summer break for me. yay! 🌻

so much happened these past months but i did it. only one thing is left and that is to write an email to professor about possible theme for my future bachelor thesis. yes, i am graduating next year! still can't believe it.