idk what i’m doing

I seem to be living a very expensive lifestyle called eating food regularly

best case scenario Digital Circus gets remembered in a similar way as Steven Universe: a show that was Really Fucking Good and had nuanced characters and interesting things to say, but the audience wasn't quite ready for it and it imploded into a discourse ball. four years from now I expect to see lesbians drawing Jax like she's a renaissance muse the same way people still draw Pearl or Lapis

This is not my grave I'm just hangry

Me 15 minutes before I have dinner: do you think I'll ever be happy

trans shane is so real to me that he's too real and I know he would for sure be an egg uncracked for a long time and he'd play in the pwhl and he'd still be the best and he'd be obsessed with/hate ilya rozanov because he knows he's just as good (maybe even better) but in this world no one is bothering to compare them and maybe he tracks him down at some event because he needs to tell him "im better than you, you asshole" and. well. hollander isnt ilya's usual type for girls but there's something about her and they end up getting each other off and exchanging numbers and meeting when they are in the same cities and shane does NOT want people to know but he isnt really sure why but ilya is fine with that it's just casual sex. except ilya started watching hollander's games and she really is good maybe actually better than him and maybe he's thinking about her a bit too much and. and then they meet up for the fifth or sixth time and ilya is sort of obsessed at this point and really wants them to actually fuck but hollander sort of freaks out stuttering panicking blushing then finally admits he only wants to do that if it's in his ass and ilya isnt sure what possesses him to say well that's okay ive done that with guys so I can make it good for you and shane is all the sudden very interested in the fact that ilya likes guys and he isnt sure why it makes his stomach twist up with excitement and arousal like what is wrong with him but ilya has this thinking look on his face and then says "yes. I like pretty people, pretty girls," he lifts his hand up to cup shane's face, "but also pretty boys" and oh does shane want to be his pretty boy. And then he is a good boy and a pretty boy and my boy for ilya from then on but he's not that for anyone else for a long time. Even after he comes out i think he doesn't medically transition for a while so he can keep playing and it sucks and him and ilya are fucking and hiding it through all this too and it makes it even harder for shane (unfortunately) because he is realizing he is in love with ilya and that transitioning and coming out is what has now made it so hard for them to be together without hurting ilya's career and making it impossible for him to go home but they love each other ilya loves him so much and they finally tell each other ilya still tells him first and he still takes a trade to a Canadian team because it isn't safe for shane in the US and they live happily ever fucking after

i’m tired of babying grown women who let beauty standards control their entire life. stand up, grow up & get over yourself. enough. you aren’t perpetual victims. exercise the autonomy you refuse to acknowledge you have. you can choose to stop this circus anytime. grown ass fucking women acting like helpless victims to the patriarchy and then in the next breath going “COME WITH ME TO MY BOTOX APPOINTMENT😃” you are traitors and we will never make it out of the patriarchy if personal responsibility can’t be taken

like god fucking damn women for centuries fought to have financial and social independence, and we largely achieved that in most countries, just for modern women who have no idea what patriarchy used to do to us to turn around and go “i’m not the problem, blame men for saying i look prettier after a nose job” you have everything your foremothers hoped and dreamed for, all that autonomy won through blood and sweat, and you waste it offering your body up to the patriarchy because “social pressure” get the fuck over yourself and stop acting like you have no choice. absolutely pathetic

and whenever people criticize women who get cosmetic procedures done and who enslave themselves to beauty standards it’s always met with “it’s not their fault, it’s the patriarchy” and i find that to be such a circular, never ending blame game. yes fucking obviously it’s the true fault of the patriarchy but you can’t hold a system of social hierarchy accountable because the decisions individuals make constitute said system. and turning it into a chicken or the egg debate does nothing besides shift blame to something that cannot be reckoned with or addressed. stop blaming the patriarchy at large for the individual decisions of fully autonomous women

so funny how the older u get ur like how the fuck on gods green earth did people used to manage all th- ahhh.. i need one of these wives everybody keeps talking about..

"how was X so successful and productive and achieving?" wife feeding and clothing and cleaning and shopping and parenting for them and also probably booking appointments and personal receptionist work. AND stimulant abuse. and shes supposed to suck you off whenever. id kill him too #feminists