a little carbonation, and i'll see you next time

in the meantime while i'm "permanently suspended" from twitch if you wanted to join my discord server for updates & etc you can do that here & if you wanted to send me anything to help make ends meet since this was my only source of income you can do that through my paypal. i'll try to keep my audience posted but i don't really like using tumblr these days anyhow

please help if you can!

i think something that is often overlooked in conversations about platonic and romantic relationships in media and the argument that “two people can just be friends” is that a big part of being queer, for me personally at least, is that i am deeply in love with my friends and would do absolutely anything for them and this sentiment alone opposes the heteronormative idea that your friends are supposed to play a secondary role in your life after a certain point. my friends are not just my friends. they’re not just anything. they’re my friends.

I usually try not to do the whole “omg why is nobody on Tumblr talking about this” thing, because this website really does not matter at all in the grand scheme of things. But it’s also kind of making me feel like I’m losing my mind that nobody here seems to be aware of what’s happening to the children in Gaza?

Nearly 9,300 children under the age of five in Gaza are suffering from severe acute malnutrition. They face a daily struggle for survival with little to no access to sufficient food or medical care. Every day is a new battle against hunger and weakness, while the world watches or looks away, as if their lives can be postponed or forgotten. UNICEF.ca

i do feel somewhat ruined forever. but it’s okay we stay silly

don't infantilise yourself. you are not a child who needs an adult to make your decisions for you. you are a splendid and magnificent autocrat and you are consulting your trusted advisors. you are exercising great wisdom by inviting an expert to give their opinion before making your ruling. often the path of wisdom is to say "good morning, I'm trying to [perform task] and I have a question about [aspect], can you tell me who I should speak to for advice?" before you do it. sometimes the path of wisdom is to hire a plumber. there are times when you cannot do things for yourself but that doesn't mean you are not an adult. you don't need a grown-up. you need a specialist.

Look I don't really care for AI. I'm scared about the increasing over-reliance on tools like chatgpt and Ai assist that repeatedly give flawed or false information, I reject the promise of AI writers and actors that might infect mainstream art. But like...y'all need to change the way you look at this stuff for real. So much popular anti-AI language is so abstracted from any material reality and human truth, making up slurs for Ai bots like that's a normal thing to do, wantonly accusing artists of using Ai like a witch hunt, and talking about the human element of art supplanted by AI in very Christian terms, calling it "sacred" or coming from the soul. You don't have to like AI, but I really encourage you to examine how you feel about it and what it's been making you say. Cause it's apparently making you say ethnic slurs

STILL NOT HALFWAY TO THIS G0AL BTW. it's been 5 months and i'm nowhere close to even 1.5k.

every day this site feels more and more hostile to be on as a racialized person

this used to be a place where I talked about my interests. I used to blog about the tv shows and books and video games I liked alongside my politics. But now it feels like 90% of what I post is about racism because this site is so fucking racist and so overwhelmingly white that I’ve had to become primarily a political blog out of necessity. I’ve seen the same thing happen to countless Black and Brown ppl I’ve followed over the years and it makes me sick to think about. not because I don’t want to speak about political/social issues or because I don’t think it’s important to do so; if I had a choice in the matter this would still be an overtly political blog and I would still be speaking out about the issues that matter to me. But so many white users are out here posting exclusively about fandom or art or music or photography or whatever else they’re passionate about, whereas if you’re openly Black or Brown on the internet you literally do not get that option because you will inevitably get swathes of white people coming to you and demanding you justify your existence to them. And I think that sucks

While this post is primarily about racism I’ve seen this happen time and time again to trans women as well, racialized or otherwise. I have transfem friends and mutuals I met in fan spaces as a teenager who now post primarily about transmisogyny, because it’s just so incredibly pervasive that they’re forced to spend basically all of their time on the internet advocating for their right to exist as trans women instead of having fun engaging with the things they love