Hey just a quick heads up for anyone wondering why I haven’t been posting: I recently started antidepressants and my life has gone a little upside-down.
On the positive, antidepressants are really helping me feel less awful and be able to get up in the morning. Yesterday I woke up around 9 with no alarm (which for anyone who knows my sleep life is a miracle of massive proportions) and went on to do SO MANY THINGS that day. I counted, it was fifteen things ranging from going to therapy, cleaning up my dorm room, folding all my clothes, writing an adult email, working on training for my summer job, and communicating with my doctor. Plus some other stuff too.
On the negative, my vision started going blurry so I had to stop them. No more of this particular antidepressant for me, my eyes aren’t happy with it. But at least the blurry vision stopped and hasn’t come back so far. I also woke up around 1 and let me tell you, I’m half an hour into being awake and it s u c k s. I want to go back to bed so badly right now and not wake up for a month. Maybe a year. I’m just exhausted and all I’ve done is eat lunch.
Everything I did yesterday was on the tail end of coming of my antidepressants. My focus and feeling that my life wasn’t a perpetual shitshow plus the waking up before noon on a regular basis without prompting? that was my life for a week. I want it back. At this point if it came to a decision between frying my eyesight and getting my life back, it would be a very difficult decision. Luckily I don’t have to make it, because there are other antidepressants I can be on!
So yeah. I’m probably going to be posting a lot less if at all for a while while I try to get on a different antidepressant and my brain stabilizes (though make no mistake: when season 2 comes out I will be right there waiting for my SOUL to be DESTROYED by the incredible adventure I know is coming...)














