how i sleep knowing some old russian man in the 19th century mentioned all my angst in his books and i am not universally alone with these feelings

that part in tbk when dmitri sees alyosha and is overcome with how much he loves him and so the normal course of action his brain provides is to scare alyosha to death

I want to live and I am living, even though that defies logic. Even if I don't believe in the order of things, I still love the sticky leaves as they open each spring, the blue sky, and some people whom you love, do you believe it, and don't know why; I love some great deeds performed by men, in which, perhaps, I no longer believe but which I still treasure in my heart for old times' sake. Look, they've brought your fish soup: eat to your heart's content.

It's important to have at least two blorbos that fit into specific roles in your life

rakitin is my favorite tbk character because he never has any business doing anything he does and always manages to fuck it up