i skipped forwards to watch s6 e22 of bones, specifically the scene with vincent. i did this with ianto jones too, because i feel better knowing exactly how a character dies before it happens in canon.
i cried. hard.
so obviously i went back to go watch my comfort episode of bones (s1 e3) and i realised something.
no matter how much i love vincent nigel-murray, or lance sweets or... anyone, really... zack addy will always mean the world to me.
he's been my favourite since the beginning. literally.
i was watching s1 e1 with my sister, and i pointed at zack and said "i like that one. i think he's my favourite" the SECOND he was on screen. this has never happened to me before, and it's never happened since. i got a crush on him in s1 e2, and i've had one ever since.
i love his character. i love him, despite his flaws.
zack addy is me. i am him.
everything i do when i'm not motivated is because HE would do it.
im considering watching firefly because hodgins mentions he likes it in one episode. i quote him constantly.
he's my fav little guy. he's my special interest. mind you, i've never had a special interest on a character before. i just wanna go into detail on every aspect of his character, i wanna know all of his lines, i wanna read every fic with him in. i wanna like every post, watch every edit and headcanon all the little things.
i may hate my autism sometimes. but i thank it right now for giving me zack addy.