im so tired

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I came to this book for the monsterfucking but actually quickly fell in love with the relationship dynamics of the characters. Better than anything else I have yet read, ms. ironside here writes the joy of messy queer relationships and Gender Shit without lingering too long in the expected and drawn out heartache.

I'll quit dancing around the point: Freydis fucks a lot. she fucks her friends and the woman who comes to be her partner and also becomes a consort for a big eternal spider queen, and deftly navigates the bundles of insecurities that come from that. It's a book that's erotic first, but doesn't forget its characters in the process. Even big strong warrior ladies get dysphoric, get anxious about what they mean to their partners. And even a central love interest in a book about getting pumped full of spider eggs can look at that and say "well, thinking about that too long will make me throw up but im so happy for you sweetie."

Graft: Cyberpunk advertising hellscape story about a trans woman who gets her neovagina stolen and has to run a heist to get it back and to prevent the assassination of a prominent orca.

Vivisection: Erotica about two trans femme and t4t pilots of biohorror mechs fight for their lives due to being ambushed on a routine mission, due to piloting mechs that cause brain damage and psychological damage, due to being in love and not aware of it.

Laws Dawg: Mutant trans woman trekking across a radioactive apocalypse death world discovers her long lost dog has been captured for sport fights. Carnage ensues.

The Beginner's Guide To Parasites Of The Human Heart: Second experiment / practice novel, it's not that good. Trans femme cyborg with superhuman powers gets cancer from her own abilities, and falls in love with another superhuman in a shitty care home. After she dies, her corpse is sold to a cult, which feeds her to a heavily mutated species of tape work as an experimental test of immortality. The parasites consume her neural tissue and replace it, reanimating her corpse along with a lot of her memories and feelings. This causes problems.