i think. i am realizing i fucked up. i have been fucking up for some time.
that post i recently reblogged, about de-centering oneself in conversations of racism, made me realize i HAVE put personal pride and defensiveness first. my instinct is to distance myself or point fingers the other way, but... none of that matters. the fact is that i remained in a community with someone who made racist remarks to cattyrascal, and i refused to think about it. i stubbornly focused on how the situation felt unfair to me.
i'm sorry. the way i've behaved is wrong. i can't take it back, but i can try to be better going forward. i'm going to step away from that community and put in an effort to better educate myself on race and race theory.
























