princess of hardcore

Short answer, no, not really.

Long answer, wrestling or doing any kind of physical activity is the furthest thing from my mind right now. I’d love to be able to drive my car without worrying about getting a headache. Or listen to my favorite music at a level above a whisper. I think right now the idea of trying to wrestle makes me feel ill.

I’d love to cosplay as Sally Skelenton, but my face painting skills aren’t on that level yet 😩 But I think I’d like to do more Disney princesses. I dressed up as Cinderella during lockdown and I felt so pretty.

Happiest place on earth

Over the past 4 weeks I’ve had a really bad setback in my recovery. I was doing really well with my progress, I was even starting to drive at night, which I haven’t been able to do for eleven months. I was challenging myself more and more each day, but then I challenged myself a little too much (with lights and loud noises) and I guess my body just couldn’t handle it and I’ve been feeling like crap ever since.

Now it feels like how I was feeling months ago in my progress: headaches at all time, non-stop pounding in the back of my head, extreme sensitivity to light, even worse sensitivity to noise, depression, emotions completely out of whack, anxiety, fatigue, total lack of energy, no motivation for anything.. just all around terrible. To be honest, I’ve been extremely frustrated, angry, upset, and every emotion in between about my progress and this relapse. It’s been over a year since my concussion and I am still suffering every single day. I’ve pretty much been laid up on my couch these past 3/4 weeks just trying to relax and take it easy, but that also means I’ve been alone in my thoughts, having very limited human interaction, and pretty much going insane.

So this week I’m going to try to better my mental health and get off my couch and do things that make me happy. If I can’t make my physical health better, I need to try my best to make my mental health better.