My weird and wacky life

I'm not sure how I feel about starting highschool, but all I know is that I just need to get out of the house.

started writing another story. i have 5 stories im currently working on.

I want to clean my room and get rid of things I don’t need, but I’m having a really hard time with motivation. I’m audhd so I struggle with letting things go along with keeping my room clean. My room is feeling cramped and dark which makes me feel down and depressed, but I just can’t seem to be able to start cleaning it. Any suggestions? I’ve tried music and podcasts, but that doesn’t help. 

Recently I’ve been obsessed with poetry and collecting quotes. I’m not sure why, but it makes me happy. Even if the poetry or quote is sad, I’ll save it and write it down so I remember it. I’ve been wanting poetry books but can’t find any, if you have any suggestions please let me know!

Started to play overwatch 2 with my friends. It’s not as hard as I thought it’d be

I’ve recently started writing a new story, the only problem is, I know exactly how I want it to go, but when I go to write it out I don’t like the way I wrote it. It’s so exhausting. I know how I want it to go so how come I can’t write it like I have in my head?

What ever I write I tend to show my therapist. For my past 2 novels that I wrote his favorite was my most recent. It’s the queer romance one. He said he loved the way I wrote the characters and how the way the reacted with each other. He said that the way I wrote the story constantly kept him on edge and wanting to know more. He helped me understand what I needed to add or change. 

During my hiatus I’ve completed the one novel I have posted about, but also another one that is a queer romance, it was my first time writing a romance and I really enjoyed it. I’ve started writing my novels using a typewriter so I use less computer ink, it’s honestly so much fun! 

sorry I’ve been off for quite some time, I had personal issues that needed to be dealt with, sorry I was unable to let you all know in advance.

It’s supposed to snow today... Thought it was supposed to be spring

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while... I’ve been pretty busy with school. But not much has happened lol. I mean my life for the past few weeks has been pretty boring. I mostly sit around reading or watching TV. Nothing interesting has even happened at school. Which is weird, like school is where all the weird things happen. I guess I could say one thing tho, I finished the novel I’ve been writing. It’s been like 5 years since I started it, also I got tickets to a concert for my favorite band. But that’s about it lmao.

Today is the day that I brought my monster high doll to school. I was terrified I was going to be made fun of, but surprisingly no one in my high school cared.. Like at all.

To be honest, I think I have arthritis... still... When I was younger when I was about 3 the doctor told my mom I had arthritis, a kind that causes your joints to become looser than normal, which meant I dislocated my joints. A lot. And I’ve always struggled with pain if I use my arms or legs wrong without stretching first. And I’ve always had a slight discomfort in my fingers/hands, feet/toes, back, and neck. Recently it’s gotten so bad I can’t sleep. It’s physically impossible. My bones feel as if they are being pulled tight like a rubber band. They feel stiff yet I can move them just fine. So yeah, if the doctor can’t do anything tonight when I go and see her, could you guys on this platform give me ideas on how to deal with it? Thanks.

Finally got some earplugs and my dad who usually is like ‘that’s a crutch you won’t have it all your life’ goes, ‘these are sh!t you should’ve asked me for recommendations, these won’t last.’ and I’m left speechless

This new year I plan to be more like myself, and stick up for myself when it comes to my needs. I plan not try not to mask as much as I do when I am at home, and I plan to just overall be more myself then I ever really have been. I hope my anxiety doesn’t kick in when I’m trying to be myself since I haven’t been my true self really ever. So now, I will stim when I need to, wear my new earplugs when I need, and explain why I don’t like certain things. I’ll try not to become upset when my parents don’t believe me or they think I’m being over dramatic because the only thing that matters is my mental health

I’m the only one in my house who isn’t sick, yet I’m the one being quarantined to my room. haha gotta love it. I like my room anyway so I’m not upset as long as I don’t get sick lol