i can't go on. i'll go on.

so you made it to be seventeen

here's what your fifteen year old self is currently thinking

that she loves her internet friends (i sincerely hope you still know and treasure anna, cake, sharda, mary, andrew and bone. i really do. they make you better.)

that she loves her irl friends and hopes that you've stayed in contact with them (lauren. ruby. jaymie. renata. jenn. jess. sophie. erin. adele, claire. rachel. dori. new new. laura. mad. alex. pip. evan. <3)

that you've maybe found new love, and gotten over your first crush and first crushing defeat by it. if you haven't, that's ok. i haven't either.

that she's surrounded by primary school nostalgia and the amount of photos is weirdly skewed more towards high school, wherein she did jack shit

that she's proud of you

that she wonders if you're safe

that she hopes you've never self-harmed

that she wonders if you've made any discoveries about yourself

and that she hopes you're happy.

happy fucking birthday, you treasure. i love you. i want you to live, and i hope that sentiment keeps carrying on.

i hope you've realised everything is going to be ok. i haven't, but maybe you will have.

me: huh?

brain: that was a dude from Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, remember?

me: yeah, what about it?

aries: come at me scrublord im fuckin ripped

taurus: (takes you to McDonald's just to tell you how much they McFreakin love you)

gemini: (hands u a note saying 'my ass')

cancer: hey wanna hold hands? (holds ur hand, immediately slams it down on the table) IM THE ARM WRESTLING CHAMPION

leo: if i was a dog, i would wag my tail whenever i saw you

virgo: (wakes up one day with you as the first thought in their mind) ...... wtf

libra: i love you...........tube videos of cats do you wanna watch one with me?

scorpio: (holds your hand) this better be clean

sagittarius: i thirst-followed you, and it was the best decision of my life

capricorn: you are the least terrible person I know

aquarius: (sends u a meme saying 'u meme the world to me')