I Am Sorry..
If you hearing this right now then I'm probably dead Or possibly layin' up in a hospital bed Reflecting on shit I've caused and probably said Not a drinker, but I could use a shot to the head Or four to the chest, a rope to the neck Trynna balance my personal battle, copin' with stress Hope for the best, holdin' my breath You souls waited for my tombstone before you showed me respect Lord knows the way it goes, they don't love you 'til you die Swearin' up and down that they were runnin' by your side Could've let it slide but I'm probably not alive And if I am then you probably won't proceed with the lies Notice eyes full of tears and they got me so fed up I hope to communicate from wherever I end up The love you givin' now that I'm gone got me heated If only I received it when breathing
I said I'm sorry I didn't make it I got surrounded by my sorrows and they shake it I tried to roll with every punch but couldn't take it I got to feel the realest pain and they'd replace it I said I'm sorry I didn't make it I'm not a crier but these tears I couldn't fake it I gave my heart and tasted love and then they break it I'm sorry I just hope I ain't mistake it, yeah
Felt like no one can feel me, uh
Wishin' someone would kill me, uh
Walk around with this damage, they take advantage once I reveal me, uh
All this baggage 'cause they see cabbage instead of seeing the real me, uh
All this baggage from all the damage that came
Can somebody heal me? uh
I just wanted embrace, but it's hard to let people near me, aye
And I beef with myself, to the point I'm startin' to fear me, aye
Screamin' out for assistance, but it's like nobody hear me, aye
In a room full of people, still feel like the only one here b, aye
I been talkin' to God, really hoping for guidance
But I can't see his signs, my eyes been burnin' from crying
And that's the part (I'm on dyin'?), no
And as I'm laying here dyin'
I notice nobody's with me, not even the ones I confide in
Ammo made for me confiding to you it's a shame
That my last ride'd to be ridin' with you
This is something that I sat down and decided to do
And I'm sorry but there ain't no way that I'm gonna move
