Does this make me soft as a man? This is an "L" I'ma hold it. Tired of being hopeless & making shitty people stay the closest. How pathetic am I, that I'm this torn up but can't fuckin show it. Cause I'm worried bout how ya'll think and what ya'll feel and all my opportunities blowing. I think I need help.. or maybe I just gotta toughen up. Before I really start snapping and end up putting rounds to your bodies like a button-up Maybe I need a vacation.. Move back to my home state. Maybe I should give into the lil me, saying I should put a fucking gun to my face. IDK who THE FUCK to talk to. IDK who THE FUCK'S a homie. IDK who really cares or who want's me to open up just to be nosey. IDK what to turn too. IDK what'll help me cope. IDK I don't fucking know, if I should even hold onto hope..
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