How to Walk on Water

As a former minister in this group, I am telling my journey on YouTube if anyone is interested in deeper details about my time in a strict holiness group. This document has been widely published on the internet and I am attaching apicture here as there a many Church of God groups throughout the world. Mine came from a split with the Anderson, IN Church of God and considered themselves…

Tonight @ 8 PM- Me and My Daughter Tell Our Story

What’s going on? So excited that me and my daughter have come to the point of healing where we can tell our story as a mother and daughter on this podcast. Many of you know the work that I had to do to win my daughter’s heart back. Get ready for a phenomenal discussion. My husband and I have been on Natalie and Saunte’s program before and their vibe work healing our community is awesome.

Journey Back to Me

I am so elated with my life after leaving my past behind. One of the great things about thinking for your self is that you find your way back to your identity and the real you. When you shed the fear of people from your life, you can soar. I think of SOAR as Survivors Of Abusive Religion.

People from my old life ask me how I’m doing. I’m doing great.

Lately, I’m been getting my health…

Day 7 -WFPB Lifestyle

So it’s been 7 days since I decided to go plant-based and the change has been good. My mobility is better, not perfect but it’s only been a week or so. Since I’m a researcher at heart, I’ve been educating my self about plant-based whole food eating. Man, I made it but this week was tough, mostly because of my ailments, it was difficult to stand such a long time to do all the prep required to be…

OMG! WFPB Whole Food Plant Based Eating

After getting myself together with a family move and getting my son settled in college. I’ve decided to turn my eyes on me for a change. One of the things I’m embarking on (re-visiting actually) is my goal of going plant based in my eating. I hate the word diet because it sounds so faddish and temporary. WFPB is WHOLE FOOD PLANT BASED eating. It’s not a diet or the latest fad. Its just eating…

I joined a church that seemed filled with love I had never experienced; people that paid attention to you — God took me from an agnostic to a true believer.  God knew what I needed.

I lived and believed their doctrine and rules—God understood why.

I got married and raised my children under their strict teaching — and God knew why.

God called me to teach and preach under their banner –and He knew why.

Then one day, I realized the deep flaws in my church, it’s ways of teaching, and the hypocrisy in the way it was held –God understood that and I didn’t.

I was so blinded to these things for so many years —  God knew why.

One day, I had enough.  I asked my Pastor for a sabbatical – -God understood why.

I stopped my church activities, preaching, and positions and struggled with things we were teaching and holding people to live, I ask questions but got no response — God showed me why.

God held me when I cried and struggled –He understood.

I left my beloved church – God knew why.

For a while, after I left, I was just tired of religion and church after 30 years of being the “perfect” Christian –and God understood why.

For a while, I couldn’t bear committing to a church.  I would simply visit, enjoy fellowship, and go home — and God understood why.

I didn’t trust organized religion — and God understood why.

I didn’t trust myself that I would go too far with religion again  – and God understood why.

I was angry at myself, angry at God for not showing me sooner, and angry at lost time – and God understood.

I didn’t feel much like reading my Bible or praying—and God understood.

The idea of starting a Bible study or recovery group was there and it sounded good, but I wasn’t emotionally ready for that.   God knew that.

I still had a lot to learn– about me — and God knew it.

God has brought me back full circle and ignited my love for him again and showed me how to approach him– the right way this time–He understood when.

He waited on me to recover and re-gain my bearings – He understood how.

God has kept me in love with Him; I’m a real person, a valuable person,  with the heart of a healer, and a wiser person; He showed me who I was and where I’ve been, deepened my relationships, given me true friends and a new zest for life and hope for the future.

He loves me and He understands the whys.

  at my sister’s wedding last year

My son in Massachusetts has a lung infection is at high risk in our current COVID- saturated environment.  He’s been quarantined for a month by the doctors but through prayers and good medical care, he is doing better.  He had me scared there for a minute because when he called, he could barely breathe or talk.  Mama was going to be on the next plane out, but an ambulance was called and got him…

In Acts 1:6-7 the disciples asked the risen Christ legitimate questions about the future,  but his response was:

6 So when they had come together, they asked him, “Lord, will you at this time restore the kingdom to Israel?” 7 He said to them, “It is not for you to know times or seasons that the Father has fixed by his own authority. 8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon…

I have not been writing about this type of subject too much lately, but this was so good I had to share.

Confidence in the Lord

I have new goals and a new life. A total change from the last 30 years.  Not without problems, though, but a new outlook. A more mature outlook.  I am excited about my future and my family and we are getting closer everyday. 

A recent scripture came into focus for me.

Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust…

Psalms 40:4a

Blessed is the person that makes God his confidence and confidant

My Personal Revolution When you discover a place, a relationship, or a situation that hinders the possibilities in your life, then it's time to make some moves. 

Personal growth is the result of re-evaluation.  Our heavenly Father is definitely into reviewing things and making alterations based on circumstances.  In the Old Testament, He declared the city of Ninevah null and void until he saw that they repented from the heart.  He changed his mind about them.  Originally, when it was time for Isreal to exit Eygpt, God wanted to just use Moses, but because…

My Personal Revolution When you discover a place, a relationship, or a situation that hinders the possibilities in your life, then it's time to make some moves. 

Personal growth is the result of re-evaluation.  Our heavenly Father is definitely into reviewing things and making alterations based on circumstances.  In the Old Testament, He declared the city of Ninevah null and void until he saw that they repented from the heart.  He changed his mind about them.  Originally, when it was time for Isreal to exit Eygpt, God wanted to just use Moses, but because…

Mindful Eating and the Battle of the Bulge

I’m working on new habits as I focus on my transformation from church zombie (someone that goes to church and doesn’t think for themselves) to a real person.

All things are lawful for me, but I will not be enslaved by anything.

I Corinthians 6:12 (b)

Eating and food have always been my comfort and my coping mechanism since I was a girl. This is something even Jesus couldn’t shake from me all…

I’d like to tackle a particular scripture that says  God will not hear the prayer of sinners. Those that take a literalist view of scripture will say that it means what it says without reference to context and the character of God.   One of the greatest detriments to the gospel is teachers that don’t fully explain scriptures but simply repeat them the way they heard them.   There has to come a…

What we mediate on is so important to our mental and emotional health.

I spent so many years thinking about the welfare of my church that now, sometimes, the slightest mention becomes an automatic trigger down a rabbit hole. You don’t grieve over something you didn’t love. (more…)

My Letter To God

Dear God, 

I’m grateful for the life I have now. This one life you’ve given me and faithfully led me to. Since I handed my life over to you, it has not been easy.  I feel peaceful this morning though.  Leaving my beloved church behind has been enlightening. I lived that way for 35 years because I believed with all my heart that there was no other way to live but our way,  but you showed me the…