the wonder lingers and the shame remains

matt johnson premiere understander of what it's like to be painfully self-aware of The Way That You Are but totally unable to do anything to stop the patterns or to change yourself into a person that is more societally acceptable slash normal so having instead to turn around and fully embrace the fact that you are not capable of really actually growing up, and will in fact never be capable of it, and so you make it a part of your whole deal and even a profitable and empowering public identity while still also dealing with the deeply embedded and never fully eradicable shame of it.

matt johnson is like if pete doherty was toronto millenial video game movie nerd digital era grunge adjacent autistic bicurious gymbro comedy edgelord core. And pete doherty is like if matt johnson was london indie sleaze garage rock poetic new romance pansy 1920s dandy revival core. So really theyre not that different at all. and they both love THE SMITHS!