im car0l1nskyy, mage of space and transfem girlthing
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i am weaver and wyrm
i am feline and canine
i am machine and divine
i am a huge fucking nerd
i am also plural, meet the system under the cut
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im car0l1nskyy, mage of space and transfem girlthing
chimera ascendant, holder of titles abundant
i am weaver and wyrm
i am feline and canine
i am machine and divine
i am a huge fucking nerd
i am also plural, meet the system under the cut

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Acerby real!
Yes, itβs way over-engineered
The cowl and hair band part are held on with magnets :)
OH SHE IS LOOKING SO GOOD!
Predictions for Dungeons & Dragons under Hasbro's management in the coming years:
Uma Musume style horsegirls introduced to the Forgotten Realms; setting's lore revised so that they've always been there.
Advancement rules now stipulate per-session XP bonus based on lifetime D&D Beyond purchase history.
Compendium of exclusive feat trees for specific gender and sexual identities. Bisexuality receives no feats of its own, being mechanically implemented as "half gay"; the resulting synergies are disgusting.
Editorial error in revised Dungeon Master's Guide accidentally refers to Dungeon Masters as Hasbro's employees.
"Noble savage" coding of barbarian class walked back, refocused on European folkloric touchstones such as the Ulster Cycle; all barbarian characters become Irish stereotypes.
AI-based DM service trained exclusively on work of Ed Greenwood launched; withdrawn a week later citing "guiderail issues".
Expanded discussion of navigating player expectations frames "not showing up at all" as a valid playstyle.
Dragon-blooded sorcerer subclass revised to state that one of the character's ancestors was "very good friends" with a dragon.
Water experiencing itselfπ
the wisdom ive learnt is that becoming part of a friend group 1) takes a long time and 2) involves a lot of feeling awkward and left out at first. thereβs nothing terrible about this but if you grew up chronically lonely or have any kind of trauma relating to social isolation this likely feels Really Wrong and activates danger signals. but both fortunately and unfortunately itβs just how becoming close to new people works most of the time
another thing that was not intuitive to me as someone who grew up an autistic loner: basically everyone on the planet is starved for connection all the time and almost everything people do is an attempt to reach out to another. most seemingly illogical interactions and behaviours can be explained by this. you have to take as many of these invitations as you can. even if you're wrong you still attempted to bring more warmth into the world

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I think that dungeon crawling is to TTRPGs what shooters are to video games. It's a structure that has been around since almost the beginning of the medium, that persists because it fundamentally works, and it fits well with the affordances and limitations of the medium. And like shooters, its ubiquity leads to a certain amount of backlash, some of it warranted, and a lot of it less so.
Looking at it from that perspective, people who denigrate dungeons as not being real roleplaying or storytelling feel a lot like the gaming nerds of the mid 2000s, sneering at bros who play Gears of War and Halo, and insisting that they play real games.
Except that those nerds were, at least somewhat, responding to the state of the video games industry as it actually existed. And, notably, they were actually playing the non-shooter games that existed.
By contrast, the dungeons-aren't-roleplay 5e players feel like if those gamer nerds were on their "all shooters are brainless pablum" bullshit now, in a world where some of the most praised narrative games of all time are shooters, and where shooter mechanics have been used to make wildly inventive puzzle games, horror games, speedrunning games, roleplaying games, etc.
And instead of playing any of those amazing shooter games, or even any of the fantastic non-shooter games, they were insisting that real gamers who care about narrative make Halo machinima.
Ummm she's literally sensitive :/
ive said it before and ill say it again, self harm is an incredibly valuable grounding technique and without it i almost certainly would have done far more harm to myself than any cutting or burning could have. We need to stop framing self harm as this ultimate horror indication of damage, why is this form of self harm any different than another?
We should be teaching people harm reduction not that self harm means you're broken. I'm sorry if anyone has ever made you feel that way. If self harm makes you feel better, even for a moment, why shouldn't you be allowed to do that? people do shit that harms their body all the fucking time but this one thing is off limits?
I'm edging around the topic because it's almost certainly ban worthy but like, if it helps fucking do it, id much rather you use a "less than ideal" grounding technique (which im already rolling my eyes just typing that) than have no way to help yourself.
I hope this makes sense and helps at least one person, i love you <3
THEY KILLED AMITY???????
you're not allowed to tell girls who are in a terrible place that they're not broken. it's a bannable offense on tumblr.
Honestly, fuck @staff. This post helped save my life and @staff banned her. Fuck you @staff, when ya'll are *anywhere* close to the level of harm reduction that this post provided, maybe then you'll be a real blogging site again
THEY KILLED ESTROGEN BLOOD CHALK TOOO?????
they cannot kill me in any way that matters. Thanks for being here, lovely.
they've been very clear with us on this point: you're not allowed to tell girls who are in a terrible place that they're not broken. it's a bannable offense on tumblr.
I'll do it again.
Do you remember when Amity risked her blog to give love and paid the price? I haven't forgotten.

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so staff might be terminating random transfems like dozens of times within a day on pride month and they might be literally taking the trans colors out of the progress flag and they might be perfectly happy letting nazis openly doing constant sexual harassment campaigns with the express purpose of trying to kill the target. but at least they brought pjackks blog back! that makes up for it! happy pride month!
I'm imagining a world where RPGMaker somehow made it as the de facto codebase for software and you have to navigate your banking app by walking around in a huge room full of NPCs named "make deposit" and "make withdrawal" etc and there's loud as fuck stock music playing
Smoking absolutely destroys your estrogen.
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

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btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here
eating would be fine if it was only a recreational activity. instead, its a horrible sisiphean nightmare and you need to do it every day without fail on threat of pain and death