So True!!!

you wanna know what I'm good at? I'm good at killing people. yeah when i got back from afghanistan i uh i was really depressed you know like i didn't leave my house for months. and uh this friend of my dad's, he's uh he's like an uncle to me he uh he helped me out and he gave me a purpose. he told me that that what i'm good at over there could be useful here and uh. it's a job you know the money's good and uh these people i take out like they're they're bad people you know like they're pieces of shit. um but lately you know i like I'm not sleeping and the that depressed feeling is back you know. like like i know there's more to me than that. but maybe i dunno. maybe there's not. maybe this is all I'm good at. i don't know.

additionally, this dynamic (which i’m now realizing is just the plot of my thriller novel):