breathe easy

tags guide (for myself mostly)

0 (collective), 1 (ferris), 2 (f.n), 3 (cb), 4 (4), 5 n.n, 6 (p), 7 (v.t), 8 (w), 9 (c), 10 (jt), 11 (k)v

*: deep set unease and darkness under the guise of normality. common staples are bad weather, dark spaces, and interiors of houses

2823: grief and missing people and living in the aftermath. common staples: knee injuries.

matriphage: as you can imagine i didnt have a very good childhood

instructions for traveling west: specifically feelings related to restarting your life in the summer on the west coast. common staples are brightness, the wilderness, and the company of good friends

party at hoppers place: the intersection of loneliness, birthdays, parties, and the holidays. alone in a crowded room. common staples are winters, parties, and crowds of people.

soul murder: as you can imagine i didnt have a very good childhood part two

invincible summer: the part of you that is optimistic and happy and won't be broken by this life. common staples are spring, hope, joy, and self-reliance. companion to spit blood.

spit blood: the part of you that won't give up even when you're beaten half to death. common staples: seeking revenge, bleeding, wrestlers, and violence. companion to invincible summer.

i hope my heart goes first: the heart as a metaphorical and physical object. only really applies to things with a heart present, but a heart can be present even without it being visible. also applies to statements of great love.

antigonish: ghosts, hauntings, and not-being-there. also, the act of leaving. common staples: empty spaces, things removed from where they should be, departures, people drawn without features.

the sidelines: standing by and letting your life go by without you. common staples: sidewalks, corners, and mirrors.

nearly all my life: waiting, waiting, and waiting. what you're waiting for might never come. common staples: nervousness, checking your watch, and losing hope.