for the anon (to everyone else, this is gonna be long lol you can just skip if you want)
firstly, good morning. secondly, I've been watching you (you're the one possibly from markham canada if my sleuthing is right?) who hates my guts commit digital self-harm like at first this was fascinating, that I, someone who you don't know, am causing such a tizzy in someone else's life for no other reason than your own imagined discomfort.
you definitely found me when I was on twt, but I'm not really there anymore lol so there's no one there to bother you by reminding people about unconscious biases. additionally, you can easily mute and block me on ao3 (unlike some other people, I don't post fics on anon. in fact, I'm super easy to find, block, and mute.)
but now I've been primarily here on tumblr for at least 6 months, maybe longer and uh, hey friend you're here getting mad over an internet stranger who you could just pretend you've never heard of. I'm not the first to have written fic you don't like. I won't be the last. (ao3 was founded by people like me, go look it up.) also, you're literally haunting fics you probably won't like (cos they're actually good) just to find those you can comment under to talk to me which like, yowch lol.
you admitted that most caitvi authors and artists are 'pro shippers' in one of your latest rants. setting aside your misunderstanding of what that word means, if you already know that the folks who spend time thinking about fictional characters are able to separate fiction from reality... then what are you mad about if I'm one of those people?
if you really want to talk to me, like actually have a conversation, make a new sideblog and let's talk. I've had serious concerns with one of the other authors in the cv fandom (who I'm surprised you didn't go harass lol but maybe you did? maybe you are their friend? I don't know...) but did actually dm them and spoke enough to understand their perspective. we still fundamentally disagree (I never held hope that we would agree lol) but it was a surprisingly interesting conversation.
honestly I just want to understand your motivation for checking my tumblr religiously day after day cos like if I had the time that you've spent doing that I could have written even more fics that you probably won't like. so yeah. make that sideblog. talk to me with your whole chest. against my better judgment (and before my other friends wake up and tell me not to do this) I want to understand you better and I honestly want to know which of my haters you are, or if you're a sneaky one I've never met! (there are so many lol)
I'd love to actually understand what it is I have that makes you so mad lol. is it that people don't seem willing to immediately cut ties? is it that I never put out a long apology note? is it that some people do not care about my purported fictional transgressions?
btw I use the spicy taq tag so people who don't care about discourse can just mute it. that's me being thoughtful about other people's experiences. you could try that sometime. it's not at all that I think my ranting is of specific value.
lastly, I don't know what to tell you. writing is a part of my life I enjoy greatly and have enjoyed for many, many years. I will continue.
(and before you're like oh you're writing so many paragraphs like hello have you seen my ao3 account? do I look like someone who has trouble stringing words together?)