The Return of the Curse of the Creature's Ghost

Sam doesn’t let anyone get close when he’s hurting, and always deflects, whether it’s with sarcasm or jokes or turning the conversation to someone else or faking a smile. “I feel great” is obviously sarcastic, so it comes off as angry more than hurt, but it’s also a way of shutting down any other conversation they might have. Deflect deflect deflect.

Bucky on the other hand wears his heart on his sleeve. He blurts out facts about his life to people like Leah and Yori who he barely knows. He talks honestly about his feelings to anyone he trusts and he never seems to be afraid to have those conversations. “I feel awful” is not only 100% open and honest and vulnerable, it’s a invitation to talk about what happened.

You're right anon. It is embarrassing and disgusting. What could be more wretched, more tragic, than the moment Mickey Mouse burst into my apartment, astonishing me as I laid in a feathered robe on my bed, the midst of polishing my strap-on?

What could be more terrible than him leveling a begloved, corpse-white finger at me and demanding I morally condone a hot goth kissing a magic ingenue?

I tried to resist, I really did. I clung to my lesbian accoutrements, calling on the spirit of Leslie Feinberg to protect me, but to no avail. The Mouse forced a heterosexuality card into my hand and in that moment, it was all over. My pussy closed for business, my cats deserted me, and I started researching super bowl buffalo chicken dip recipes.

God, if only blockbusters weren't the only way to ascertain goodness. but the Bible (a thing I know about now, because I'm straight) is clear on this issue. As Christ said:

Ye shall know them by their ships. ... A good tree cannot bring forth evil ships, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good ships. Every tree that bringeth not forth good ships is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their ships ye shall know them." (Matthew 7:15 - 20)

THE VEST

A sporadically maintained journal of wanting to die and not dying anyway, and also how hot it is to move to Louisiana in the summer.

Doc asked about writing, I said it’s going good, she said can I see, I said no it’s a journal it’s private, she said so you haven’t been writing, I said I’ve been writing, she said okay I don’t have to read it just flip through the pages, I didn’t say anything, she said that’s what I thought James. 

I’m in my 30s, I came out when I was 13. For years I was the only openly gay person in my high school. I’ve forgiven so many straight people for being homophobic or just ignored it because I had to be around them. I can ignore a straight actor being homophobic; it’s certainly easier than ignoring friends or family being homophobic.

And I’m not going to get in a long argument about this--the idea that there was a good old days when gay relationships were unthinkable is pretty vile, even though straight people may not think through what they’re really saying. They miss when they were the only game in town and everyone else was “other.”

The idea that straight ships are normal and gay ships are “twisted” and “exploitative”, or just people trying to be trendy, is not great either.

The idea that straight men are being inconvenienced by the fear of someone thinking they’re gay is, um...well, I guess they are being inconvenienced because they think that’s a legitimate thing to be afraid of, but that’s, like, just because they’re homophobic, so...

This one may be tired of war, but the White Wolf has rested long enough.

This moment in Infinity War is so underrated and I’m still not over it. The first thing Bucky says when he sees his new arm is “Where’s the fight?” The arm is a gift, he should be happy, but instead he looks absolutely miserable.

I hate you, *both* of you - (2021)