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Well guys it's not funny anymore i think i need to go back to therapy. Wait no i don't i will simply rigidly control every trigger in my life And never date men which is sort of feminist praxis if you think about it in many ways.

and every time i get Like This i am tempted to say i'm a lesbian and have in the past because of my #denial and #avoidance and simply must remind myself that i've been in genuine love 3 times in my life and yes. my stats are crazy (trans man, cis man, cis woman in that order) and have had genuinely good sex with men and women. so unfortunately my fingers going numb and me getting lightheaded with fear at a tinder notification from a man is a #ptsdresponse and not #lesbianism and i need to actually work on that . for my own health. instead of avoiding it

guys Why does toggling the 'show me men also' option on dating apps literally trigger my fight or flight. sitting here in my apartment heart pounding. and Don't say it's my ptsd i already know that.

entering my bitch era again because i keep seeing scenarios in posts where it's like. x character does y action unknowinglyyyy omg he's so attracted but doesn't know it and it makes his partner sooo crazy jealous..... and i think to myself immediately Unchic Unattractive Send Him Off The Island What Kind Of Adult Does This? An Evil One.