un-raising

favorite person. I know people like

me, but no one likes me

more than others. I’m

the backup friend,

the afterthought.

So I’m lonely. I’m surrounded by

people, but I’m lonely, because none

of them want me just for me. Is it too much

never lets you fall asleep thinking you're

unwanted.

A sign that you should stay alive for one more day, maybe a couple of days.

But that sign doesn’ t come. You stare at your phone thinking maybe someone will answer or someone will text you asking if you’re okay. You search endlessly for some reason to stay alive but you can’t find any.

That is probably the most heartbreaking moment when you can’t find any reason to stay alive when you need it most because you suddenly feel all this pain and you feel more alone than you’ve ever felt in your entire life.