I'm too fucking old to be dealing with this shit. Should've killed myself when I was 16.

how to remain gentle when your softness gets stepped on over & over again

I need to stop getting my hopes up every time.

I don’t feel close to anyone anymore

I want to go back before the bad stuff happened

i hate when people are like "dont waste your energy being a hater" because its really no trouble at all, if anything i gain energy.

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

I’m literally everyone’s side friend, I’m just here when no one else is.