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This someone was my holmes for a really long time- We've been up and down multiple mountains and remained to be besties- I lost this bestie when I chose to let a boy come between us. Jealousy to me is an evil thing, and I isolate it on its own. I cant say I forgive myself for the choices ive made- I cant say im content with how anything went. Sometimes, I have a thicker skull than I should, SOmetimes, im too blind to see the real truth . Sometime, I fail to see my real friends speak from their emotions because they care, and they know whats going down. I don't expect to be forgiven, I don't expect to be friends again, I don't expect anything- I just expect closure in myself from this. Ive been eating myself alive trying to put the right words together, and Id honestly rather move on and leave it behind me..

I wasn't in my right state of mind, I wasn't present in today. Too focused on every crack I let them overpower the truth, and that took its own toll on life. You always told me, "Ill be the one here in the end, not him," and you know what, I don't see either one of you because I chose the wrong side- I found my voice, and im not letting anyone shut it out anymore.