while i spent a limited amount of time there, i still learned a lot about mr barnes and myself so here we go… (i’m bad at this💔)

he hums under his breath when he’s cleaning his gun.

he cuts his own hair badly and refuses help lmao.

he’s calmer when we’re moving about than when we’re stuck inside.

i’m the one who talks to people when we need info.

i drive, he’s my passenger princess (he’d hate being called that).

i’m weirdly sentimental. like i’ll get attached to a place even if we only stayed there a night.

sirens are a trigger for him.

he cracks jokes when he really, really shouldn’t. seriously, he needs help.

he tries to insist on me eating proper meals (like we have the luxury for that—we do not).

he’s a very physical touch kind of guy but not in that way. he has no ulterior motive, it seems almost instinctive.

he’s always in my line of sight. i believe it’s so he can watch my back but i’m also not sure if it’s intentional.

if things don’t go as planned, he’s not dramatic. he just handles it.

he’s always up before me. doesn’t matter if it’s his watch or not.

he always seems more himself at night. best time to get a real laugh outta him.

at the point i shifted into, idk what we are. we haven’t kissed yet but there’s also no way we’re just friends (based off what i experienced) so who tf knows.

𖦹 saiintbambi ／ vienna spouts

my tumblr fyp was filled with other creators showing off their scripts so i thought i should show you a tiny piece of the script i’m currently working on!!

clarissa　'02　(　23　)　♀　

gmni　infp　bi　she / her

shifter　　　　　manifestor

IF YOU’RE NOT WILLING TO LOCK IN WITH SHIFTING FOREVER YOU WILL NEVER FREE YOURSELF FROM NEEDING THE 3D TO VALIDATE YOUR TRUST

i repeat.

IF YOU’RE NOT WILLING TO LOCK IN WITH SHIFTING FOREVER—IE UNDERSTAND THAT SHIFTING MIGHT JUST TAKE YOU A LIFETIME—YOU WILL NEVER FREE YOURSELF FROM NEEDING THE 3D TO VALIDATE YOUR TRUST

i know it fucking sucks to hear that shifting has no timeline. i know it sucks to be years in and not feel any closer. i know it sucks to feel like you’ve wasted your energy on something that may never come. but i can’t give you the assurance that you only have to persist for __ much longer until it’s “your turn”. i can’t. if you wanna shift, you have to lock in WITHOUT the assurance of how much time it will take. you have to trust yourself before the shift comes. and if you cannot do that, if you cannot help but turn against yourself and be self critical and self punishing, shifting is going to be detrimental to your mental well being.

everyone can shift, and shifting is inevitable but it doesn’t mean that everyone should label themselves a shifter. being a shifter comes with a toll. you get berated, by others and sometimes yourself. you experience the full scope of emotions for things you cannot prove. you go to awesome places, but sometimes there are terrible things in those places. you develop and evolve quicker than others because you can almost speed-run through life’s many obstacles and lessons. you will lose yourself only to gain 10 more of you. time stops being real. life here gets duller, less colorful, almost like a buffer for life there. you’ll experience more in one night than some people experience in 20 years. and all of this will exist only within your head.

because everyone is tired of seeing only s/o scenarios :)

♯ being really intelligent when you’re by yourself, or with other people, then becoming the dumbest person known to man when with that one friend

♯ having a singing / dance battle with your whole friend group

♯ going to an escape room and getting absolutely nothing right so the workers have to continuously help you guys out, but that just scares you guys so literally nothing gets done

♯ sneaking into abandoned places (and getting caught for bonus points)

♯ skipping school/work together to go to an amusement park

♯ playing hide and seek in an airport

♯ having a wig snatching competition (look them up on tiktok, they’re hilarious)

♯ everyone dying their hair a colour of the rainbow

♯ getting out of context clips and editing them like a reality show, then having the whole friend group react to it

♯ getting on a bus/train none of you have ever been on and staying on it till the very last stop

♯ going to a restaurant/literally anywhere that serves food and ordering for each other

♯ going to an adult soft play or a soft play meant for your age

♯ rating each other’s baby photos

♯ draw each other as animals

♯ having a glow stick party

♯ moving in with your best friend

♯ doing each other’s make up but only one of you is a professional