Pizza the Llama

ALL MY FANDOMS! (so far)

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anyways ill update l8r

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Keep using your brain and trying that hard thing no matter how foggy. Feel stupid! It's ok! I promise you are not stupid. I promise your brain will appreciate it. And that with time it will be valuable that you tried.

It's so easy to lose a whole week to brain fog. But your brain and body don't just stop existing that week (though it can feel that way). It's so important to try to incorporate puzzles anyway. Cook a meal from a scratch, do a jigsaw, the wordle, sudoku, use your other hand, learn a new card game, watch a brand new show, do simple math equations, write words backwards, learn a new language (or even just random phrases from a few), play a podcast, read a fun article or magazine, try a new creative project. Something! To help you feel better longer and keep your brains synapses synapsing.

Find a way to push yourself into it. Ask a friend to do it with you, set a timer, build it into your routine, have a bunch of fun games on your phone, puzzles by the bed, set your google to open straight to wordle.

TO CLARIFY: neuroplasticity is magic. And CONTRARY to prior belief it does not just stop after like 25. The brain can recover in exceptional ways so if you feel behind, or feel like you lost so much of what you knew due to a deep spell of illness or depression or injury; it's never too late. Never too late to nuture your brain to a better state of health.

C'Mon, You Know You Wanna...

I am now a creature

Ponyboy would listen to yearning shit- Hozier, Conan Gray, maybe some Boa. He'd probably like Zach Bryan, but is too stubborn to listen to country so he only knows the radio hits. Maybe even Malcolm Todd.

Johnny would listen to McCafferty and Modern baseball type shi, maybe a little my chem if he's feeling optimistic. Doesn't mind pop either, a little Conan from Pony, a little 5sos when he's got a good vibe going on.

Dally would listen to Odetari and Peep, maybe some XXX. I picture him drinking and working out to witchblades specifically. In the right mood though, I think he'd also listen to Kesha. For the vibes.

Darry listens to rock and metal, but the vintage kind. Zeppelin, Van Halen, Ozzy, and for some newer stuff maybe Three Days Grace and Nickelback. Maybe even Divide the Day, if you know who they are.

Soda would be the sleeper metalhead I think. Dropped out of school, works on cars all day, super chipper guy with a lot of big feelings. He listens to shit like Too close to touch, old BMTH, Korn. Hell, I think he'd get a kick out of babymetal.

Twobit seems like he'd have the wacky taste. His Spotify wrapped was like, Kpop demon hunters, 50 cent, s3rl, the weeknd, and Lincoln. He's got one big ass Playlist and he slaps that shit on shuffle 24/7.

Steve I see being the rap fan. Eminem, Kendrick, 50. Everyone in G-unit, maybe Eazy-E, he's got the attitude. Maybe a little RnB if he's cultured, Frank Ocean, plvtnium, maybe some edgy wannabe shit like Chris Grey (no shade to the artist i rlly like that edgy wannabe shit).

All of them I can see agreeing on Michael Jackson. Not on a surface level either, he's the one artist that they all really really like. And destructo disk, but they're not as enjoyable as background music in a group setting, so they don't play them too often.

Keep using your brain and trying that hard thing no matter how foggy. Feel stupid! It's ok! I promise you are not stupid. I promise your brain will appreciate it. And that with time it will be valuable that you tried.

It's so easy to lose a whole week to brain fog. But your brain and body don't just stop existing that week (though it can feel that way). It's so important to try to incorporate puzzles anyway. Cook a meal from a scratch, do a jigsaw, the wordle, sudoku, use your other hand, learn a new card game, watch a brand new show, do simple math equations, write words backwards, learn a new language (or even just random phrases from a few), play a podcast, read a fun article or magazine, try a new creative project. Something! To help you feel better longer and keep your brains synapses synapsing.

Find a way to push yourself into it. Ask a friend to do it with you, set a timer, build it into your routine, have a bunch of fun games on your phone, puzzles by the bed, set your google to open straight to wordle.

TO CLARIFY: neuroplasticity is magic. And CONTRARY to prior belief it does not just stop after like 25. The brain can recover in exceptional ways so if you feel behind, or feel like you lost so much of what you knew due to a deep spell of illness or depression or injury; it's never too late. Never too late to nuture your brain to a better state of health.

They are not “a little lady’s man.”

Don’t excuse him picking on a girl as him having a crush. Correct the behavior and stop treating it like it’s cute and normal.

Also stop insisting little boys have crushes on significantly older women. It’s gross.

and I need it to be killing me slowly enough for them to watch me waste away and learn the cruelest part of the curse, that if i die before it's broken, they'll spend the rest of their life haunted by my ghost. and love denied an object becomes its own kind of curse.

1.Ponyboy doesn't truly see how much the others care for him because of his insecurities.

2.Members of the gang may just not like Ponyboy...and what he says about them in the book may not be as far from the truth as the fandom likes to believe it is.

I am a youngest child who has been teased my whole life and I can definitely say that I have been convinced that people hate my ass when they most likely don't. Ponyboy isn't trying to be unreliable in his narration it's just what he believes based on his experiences. Steve is an dick to him, and whether or not you believe that he secretly has a soft spot for Pony, it makes sense that Pony would hate Steve and think that the feeling was mutual. I love Steve & Pony fics that explore their relationship but like...dude I have been in Pony's position!! It sucks!!! I get why he thinks Steve hates him because, in a way, Steve probably does!!

And with Darry, I can 100% see why Pony thinks Darry hates him. I love Darry with my whole chest but he is kind of an ass in the book to Pony, and there is a definite difference between how he interacts with Pony vs Soda. Even though we, as the reader, can see why, but Pony cannot cause he's 14 and insecure and still getting used to the shift in dynamic between him and his brothers. Maybe I'm just biased cause of my life but idk man.

I had examples for all the other characters but none of them made sense so...I hope you guys understand what I'm saying.

Also being the youngest in a group (esp when the group consists of your siblings and siblings' friends) is awful. 0/10 do NOT recommend. You think everyone sees you as a bother or whatever or that you're just tanging along with the big kids because your older siblings are forced to. You are never fully convinced that they aren't just waiting for the right chance to kick you to the curb.

Or something like that.

1.Ponyboy doesn't truly see how much the others care for him because of his insecurities.

2.Members of the gang may just not like Ponyboy...and what he says about them in the book may not be as far from the truth as the fandom likes to believe it is.

I am a youngest child who has been teased my whole life and I can definitely say that I have been convinced that people hate my ass when they most likely don't. Ponyboy isn't trying to be unreliable in his narration it's just what he believes based on his experiences. Steve is an dick to him, and whether or not you believe that he secretly has a soft spot for Pony, it makes sense that Pony would hate Steve and think that the feeling was mutual. I love Steve & Pony fics that explore their relationship but like...dude I have been in Pony's position!! It sucks!!! I get why he thinks Steve hates him because, in a way, Steve probably does!!

And with Darry, I can 100% see why Pony thinks Darry hates him. I love Darry with my whole chest but he is kind of an ass in the book to Pony, and there is a definite difference between how he interacts with Pony vs Soda. Even though we, as the reader, can see why, but Pony cannot cause he's 14 and insecure and still getting used to the shift in dynamic between him and his brothers. Maybe I'm just biased cause of my life but idk man.

I had examples for all the other characters but none of them made sense so...I hope you guys understand what I'm saying.

Also being the youngest in a group (esp when the group consists of your siblings and siblings' friends) is awful. 0/10 do NOT recommend. You think everyone sees you as a bother or whatever or that you're just tanging along with the big kids because your older siblings are forced to. You are never fully convinced that they aren't just waiting for the right chance to kick you to the curb.

Or something like that.

Ponyboy

1 . . Pony always needed glasses, but he never wore them. His vision isn't HORRENDOUS... I mean, unless you hold up your hand a few feet away from him, then yeah, maybe it's worse than he thought. — Pony just never adored the thought of rough housing and his frames snapping or something of that sort. He especially hated the thought of the gang teasing him whenever he wore his big-bulky glasses around his residence...

2 . . This boy tans so damn much in the summer that sometimes it's the only way to tell him and Darry are related. — The two of them look identical during the summer. ESPECIALLY because of the tan lines.

3 . . He claimed number 79 in track the first time he joined, never realizing it was the atomic number for gold. In fact, he never realized it until Steve made the connection one night in the kitchen. — 79 was Sodapop's favorite racer.

Sodapop

1 . . Sodapop has both freckles and vitiligo. His momma used to call his white spots his sweet spots. — His vitiligo doesn't frequently change locations or spread as much as it used to, but growing up, for an entire 3 weeks his forearm to his palm was depleted from his usual melanin. — Additionally, he has spots in his hair that are completely white. He didn't realize it until Steve pointed it out one day.

2 . . Soda has a knack of staying stuck in his ways. He overthinks and complicated a lot of situations, especially verbal instructions. It used to drive Mr. Curtis nuts with how confused he'd make Soda by simply telling him that he needs him to head inside to his tool box that's near the small drawer near his dresser

3 . . He definitely has AuDHD (likewise, his brothers do too🥹) however, he never realized that his fixations were so intense until one night where he genuinely didn't sleep for nearly 37 hours because he just couldn't figure out something about that one engine he was working on at the DX. — & — His stims are horrendous too. He doesn't openly stim as much as he used to, but even with the stims he doesn't mask down, they're still loud. Usually he's jumping in place, or slapping his hands against his thighs. Teeth grinding as well. He likes the noises as much as he likes cars. — Lastly, he doesn't have tolerance for high pitched buzzing & has almost quit the DX several times because of the freezer section. He HATES IT!

Darry

1 . . Darry cares TOO MUCH about his hair. Not to the extent that Steve or Sodapop, no, but he needs it to be neat. He HATES his cowlick and it's the bane of his existence, because no matter the length, the damn thing is ALWAYS sticking out. — Mr. Curtis used to tease him by calling his cowlick his antenna because of how often it'd point straight up..

2 . . He is horrible at friendships. Like if you're not in his life everyday, you're forgotten about. That could stretch to people that he works with, even. — It's not that he doesn't care or anything, it's just he's already so stressed out with his career & family that he believes that people outside of the gang just aren't really there. If you aren't bothering him everyday, you don't exist.

3 . . He has a horrible habit of popping literally any joint of his body. His knuckles especially. You'd hear him pop his knuckles across the damn house with every door from his bedroom to the living room shut. — He picked up the habit during football.

Steve

1 . . Steve is overly blunt in tone. He doesn't mean to sound rude or inattentive but sometimes he just cannot put emotion behind his voice. Whenever he does, it sounds even more sarcastic compared to when he doesn't.

2 . . He has autism but never was officially diagnosed (60s). — He has a horrible time with identifying emotions or tone, just as much as he can't play it. — Also, he cannot stand textures touching his hands. He wears these thick gloves all the time at the DX and swears it's just to prevent gas or oil from getting under his nails, but in truth, most days he can't even stand something like water on his hands because of the way that it sticks. Stickiness is what he hates especially. Transitions too.

3 . . He has a bad leg. (In most instances I make him have a prosthetic leg, bcz 1. I just like the design, and 2. It's fun.) — Always had problems getting up and down because of his knee pain, but walking is what kills him best. He doesn't necessarily need a cane or anything, and would probably refuse it if given, but some days it would definitely be more effective than dragging a limp limb.

Two-Bit

1 . . Two-Bit has diabetes, no, not bcz he's bigger in my interpretation, it's type 1. He received it from his dad. — He wears an insulin patch on his shoulder (in more modern-ish interpretation, but accurately, he'd need shots. Which in that case, he'd always have a bit of supply stored at the Curtis' for safety.)

2 . . His sister, who I call Sarah-Anne, and him, are only half related (different dads), but Two-Bit loves that girl more than he'd ever care about anything else. The number of things he's 'bought' for her to keep a smile on her little round is ridiculous. — Talking about them, Two-Bit is the one who does her hair, from braiding to beads, it's always him. (As their momma is always busy.)

3 . . He takes over for Darry in the oldest brother role. Being the 2nd oldest means that he's the next in charged majority of the time. Of course he's goofy and doing anything to get his friends to laugh, but if he needs to get something through to someone, he ain't scared to yell. He knows when to lock in ^_^!!

Johnny

1 . . He ain't good at words. In both a reading and talking sense. His reading and writing skills were horrific for someone his age, as he never realized he was dyslexic. — His speech was never all too good either. He doesn't necessarily have a stutter, but he stumbles a lot. He's continually pausing mid sentence to string together his thoughts before he resorts to mumbling as he'd get embarrassed.

2 . . Johnny is no morning person and is salty whenever waken up by the gang. He's been awaken a hundred times over whenever he sleeps in the lot, usually by someone like Steve or Dally, and each time he bites some insult their way. "You look about as homeless as a stray, Dal, don't tell me where to sleep.."

3 . . He's scarily good at sneaking around. The Curtis' don't realize whenever he comes over in the night. Majority of the time whenever he did show, nobody would realize until he walked into the kitchen outta nowhere and get a surprise yip from Darrel.

Dallas

1 . . He knew Darry growing up, before he moved to NYC, where he lived from ages 8 to about 12 years old. — He was born in Tulsa, moved about seven and a half, and came back when he was near 14. — The two of them used to be closer than they are now.

2 . . He'd never do anything in art, because he doesn't give a rats ass about it, but he's drawn out quite a few of Tim Shepard's tattoo ideas. — On that topic, he also has tattoo that he doesn't much talk about or bring attention to (shockingly.) and it's a wilted rose on his right (back) shoulder blade that has a date underneath it.