True Thoughts

Just because they hang around and laugh with you doesn't mean they are your friend.

People pretend well.

At the end of the day,

It's quite painful. All that time spent together not realizing they were in process of exiting the friendship. Their indifference makes it even worse. They haven't deleted, blocked or unfollowed me. Now they only acknowledge me if I reach out first. Aside from that, not much effort. They seem a lot happier without me too. Ouch.

Part of me wants to contact them one more time and ask what happened, but last time I asked them I got a b.s. response, "oh sorry you feel that way. I'm not mad at you I've just been busy." However, their changed actions disprove this. When I told them I miss them, their response seems distant.

I want to delete them and unfollow each other from from everything, but last time I did that with someone else I regretted it. So I just leave it. They are now just a person I used to know on my friend list. It breaks my heart to see them online. I notice they login right when I'm about to have an event, so I wonder if they will join me like old times. Not a peep from them. Lately I am wondering if they are doing this to taunt me. One thing I know is they haven't reached out to me in about 3 weeks, and it's been about three months since they stopped supporting me. They're done with me.

I think I unintentionally upset them or made them uncomfortable, so now they are distancing themselves.

I hate when people say to just let it go and move on. I can't just turn off my emotions like that. Sometimes I have to sit in the darkness. This wound runs deep and nothing anyone says can make it better. I'm just about done telling people about it. They just...don't get it. I know this isn't true, but sometimes it seems like I'm the only person who is sensitive about losing friends while everyone else easily moves on. It's a blanket statement I know.