#laid off

I am disappointed, with myself mostly. I spent the bulk of it hooked to a screen scrolling for jobs, sending out at least seventy resumes. If i look at my tracker, it's probably closer to a hundred. Same story as a lot of folks right now, I know. Twelve rejections, one almost interview and then they went dark.

I don't want to talk to anyone, I know I *should* because people are good, friends are great, but the longer this stretch goes, the worse I feel. Since most of this is just more empirical statistics the idea of talking is just bleh. I hate being a statistic.

Yesterday was the first night I went to bed in almost a week, instead of passing out exhausted on the couch around 6 or 7 am. And before midnight! Turns out it was the precursor to being the sickest I've been in a long time. I swear for a minute I thought I had gotten cyclosporiasis or norovirus, but eight hours later I feel better. Wrecked but better. Might have been food poisoning. Or an IBS flare up.

Here's the part nobody tells you: getting laid off isn't illegal. Your employer skipping what they actually owe you is.

If you're in Mississauga and this just happened with no warning, you were rushed to sign and told you "don't qualify" because you were on probation; that number probably isn't final.

wrote up what to check before you sign anything 👇

[full breakdown here]

So I lost my job recently. My entire warehouse was laid off due to "restructuring". I am currently looking for a new job but it hasn't been very successful. I have a degree, 10+ years in supervising and managing people, but no bite in the job market.

I am honestly going crazy at home. I am the main cook of the house, I do the chores (laundry, dishes, feeding the animals) and I babysit my brother's kids. But it has gotten so monotonous. My fiancé works 12 hours a day as a machinist, so of course he is exhausted when he gets home. He has dinner, showers, scrolls for a bit and then passes out. So date nights have been very limited, even just watching a movie he falls asleep. But he's been working so hard. I cannot fault him for being exhausted.

I'm so restless.

I need something to do, but I can't spend a lot of money. I want a new hobby that isn't just reading, because I am so restless. I started doing stretches, yoga, and zumba at home but I need something something constructive.

Please send goods vibes to get hired. (I do Uber but I don't want it to be a long term thing).

Back in February I made a post asking for financial help regarding me needing to move out on a tight schedule. I appreciate everyone donated then, and you all made a huge difference. I was very close to getting an apartment when I got laid off at the end of June.

Now I am looking at a situation where I could be homeless. I could also end up finding a temporary place, but it would only be short term, and I am still working towards finding a place to live. Due to being laid off my finances have been strained.

I managed to get a job with retail, but it's going to be a while before I start. I've continued with selling off more of my magic cards, clothes, jewelry and collectibles. Tomorrow I hope to sell more. If you're interested in that, please reach out. Or, if you want, I can write you something.

Otherwise: If anyone can donate... any help, I'd appreciate it. If you can't, a reblog would be appreciated, too.

P@yp@l link

It's actually going pretty good. Ignoring some of the financial/benefit changes that aren't super great... I think this was actually a change for the better. I guess I needed a kick in the ass to get me out of my rut. To get me to try something new and different.

But, I have to say, the layoff definitely left a mark on me. I'm still feeling very insecure and uncertain.

I guess maybe that's a good thing too? Maybe I was too comfortable in my last job? Too complacent?

But I really don't like this constant worry that it's all going to come tumbling down at any moment. Every unexpected email or meeting request has me terrified that it's going to be bad news.