Rat Gang

I romanticized love too much

im never gonna have anyone like you again, am i ?

i wish you could love me the way i am

i just wish i had someone to go to when my thoughts become to much

it was an "if you love her let her go" type of love

im not capable of loving, nor did i love her, but i miss what we had

i never knew i could miss someone this much

i just push everyone away

your text notifications don't excite me anymore

my head feels so empty i cant think of anything anymore

she'll eventually leave like everyone else. i wont stop her. its for the best, im too dangerous for her.

i dont want you to be the one who pops into my head when i read that love poem or listen to that specific song. i dont want to spend night after night crying over you. im not strong, im self destructive but i think its time to let you go.

when i get excited about something or really stressed or something feels off my brain starts screaming at me and it hurts my ears until i focus in on it and realize that theres just loads of static but its probably nothing. idk if this happens to anyone else