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Hello? Anyone still there?😅

I know it’s been a bit and I haven’t upstate in a LONG time it feels like, but I’m back for now! I have a couple comics I definitely want to make and then, as you saw in the post, I have a top surgery date now! So I’ll definitely be making comics about how that goes!

Look out for lots of comics around November 15th!

I have enough money for the surgery itself (I hope anyway!) but getting supplies for after is another story. I made a list on Amazon of things I’d need afterwards and to get everything on the list would be something like $400! That’s like a MONTH of my pay!

If you’re interested in helping out, I made it a wishlist if you’d like to pick something off of it!

The only things I feel is a bit much is I put a lot of button ups on the list when I can just keep re-using the same couple of shirts if need be, so those are less necessary!

But! Plenty of time for me to get those things, I have 1 month at 20 some days left before my surgery date!

I’d love to thank all of you for supporting my comics and sticking around through the rough patches!

And thank you to those of you who already helped fund my top surgery as well! While I didn’t reach my goal with the go fund me, the stimulus checks helped fill in the gap!

-Micah💛

Top surgery post op wishlist:

Thank you so much!

It’s kind of difficult because I was a competitive gymnast for 9 years up until that point. I trained for 12+ hours a week and it was a huge change. Then practice started up again and I was having ankle issues which lead to me being in a boot for a while. Eventually I came back and got a concussion. 🤦🏽 I ended up deciding to be done with gymnastics after being in it for 10 years.

Now I’m just trying to work out on my own and it’s not quite the same. It’s enough though. Just eating better foods and stuff along with that. (Less McDonald’s if you know what I’m saying lol.)

Everyone is having a rough time right now and I know that. Some people are more unfortunate than I am too. I just got unlucky enough that all those things collided at the same time.🤷🏽

But thank you so much again, you really are too kind!

I know this isn’t a comic, but hear me out.

I’ve been trying really hard to get to a point where I don’t have to worry about what I’m wearing in order to feel good. A point where it doesn’t have to be a hoodie and a binder. A point where tight clothes don’t have me second guessing.

And that goes for my weight too. My weight hasn’t ever been a huge issue but I still feel a little self conscious when I notice my stomach in a more fitted shirt or a few months ago when I compared a picture from 2019 to then of my back.

I remembered seeing that picture and feeling so good because I just knew that with top surgery and possibly testosterone, I’d look and feel so masculine. Then a few months ago I saw my back and I definitely didn’t feel the same way.

I’ve been working out and when I looked the other day, I was pleasantly surprised. I got some broad shoulders from gymnastics (which most people hate coming out of the sport but I’m so thankful for it.) and it really made me feel good.

I wanted to make an edit to the photo I took, just to make it look more artsy. I hope you’ll like it as much as I did. I didn’t edit my body at all, just some blurring if the background, the lines, and a rosy filter over top.

I’m still working on myself, both mentally and physically but I think this is a pretty good start.

Thanks for reading!

I just know the surgeon has a huge waitlist for just getting a consult, I don’t want to delay the process anymore.

Quick warning! I did NOT work out in my binder, do NOT work out in a binder!!!

I watched a video the other day saying that you should be working on your chest for at least a year before top surgery. I don’t think you HAVE to do that but since I already work out I thought it wouldn’t be bad to add it into my routine.

Turns out my conditioning must not have been hitting my chest at ALL because my chest was and has been super sore for the past like 3 days. It just makes me kind of giddy though to think: “damn! This is going to make my chest look so good after top surgery!”

Since this comic was such a short one I wanted to add in the time lapse of me making it! I have time lapses of all my recent comics so let me know if that’s something you’re interested in seeing more often!

Also let me know if you’d be interested in seeing my work out routine! (In comic form or otherwise!)

Anyway, thanks for reading! Enjoy the show!

-Micah💛

Yes I do actually sit like that, it’s not just because I suck at drawing poses.

Ummm, so update I guess? I’ve been looking almost nonstop for a therapist who can write me a letter for top surgery and is ALSO in my insurance network and I finally found one!

When I got a call back she said that as long as everything seems good and there are no other big issues that would interfere with surgery or my mental state in addition to surgery, one or two sessions is all she’d need! I’m hoping that nothing weird comes up though that would make it take too much longer.

I’ll be a totally open book if she needs me to be so I can have top surgery.

The only issue is that I let my mom know since she’s helping pay for therapy and she was... let’s just say less than enthusiastic about it.

She says things like “I think they need more time to decide than that!” And “They should be trying other things like coping mechanisms before surgery. That should be a last resort!” She acts like she knows more or better than this literal medical professional who specializes in gender therapy. She also thinks that therapy can make me not dysphoric anymore? Which, no? It can help me deal for the short term but it’s not going to make my dysphoria go away.

I’ve been dealing with this on my own for 4 years. I think I’ve done a good job not doing the sewer slide so I’m thinking I won’t have a whole lot of coping mechanisms to learn and I’ll just be sent on my way essentially. (Not really but I mean I don’t think it’ll take more than 2 sessions for a letter at this point)

And honestly? You know what would help my dysphoria a lot? Not being told I’m a girl and being referred to by my old name and pronouns... yeah, that’s help out a lot. Too bad nobody will do THAT!

Anyway, before this turns into too long of a rant, let’s recap.

Step 1: get a therapist ✅

Step 2: get a surgery letter🔜

Step 3: schedule surgery consult🔄

Step 4: schedule surgery date🔄

Step 5: profit! (teet yeet!)🔄

I do, in fact, want to make less depressing content but it’s going to have to wait.

I used to think “I don’t care how long it takes, I’m going to save all my money so I can have top surgery with dr Garramone” then I had to wait. And wait. And wait.

And then I thought “I’m going to save up some money as fast as possible and have top surgery with dr Wolf!” And then I had to wait. And wait. And wait.

THEN I thought “okay, I don’t know how much longer I can wait... maybe I’ll see if I can get insurance to cover it? Maybe get surgery by someone closer to me? So less travel funds...”

Then I found out about dr Gast. Not my first, second or third choice but she’s good enough, takes my insurance and has payment plans just in case as well. Now all I need to do is find a therapist who can write a referral letter. It shouldn’t be too hard since I was already diagnosed with gender dysphoria years ago.

I’m getting pretty desperate and when I found out that if I can use my mom’s insurance, I could get top surgery MUCH sooner without having to save up as much money.

I’ve been bringing stuff up every now and then with her and she’s seeming to just get sad rather than mad now when I talk about this kind of stuff.

I’m going to try and talk with her asap about just therapy at first and maybe once thats a thing, I can work my way to talking about having surgery with her insurance.

Anyway, wish me luck. I’ll update how it goes eventually. I’m hoping to talk to her between now and Thursday.

Thank you all for reading, I love you guys.

This took me WAY too long to do! Not because it was hard, I just procrastinated way too much.

Anyway, this is a sort of gift for one of my followers. They recently came out as non-binary at a higher level of life than the norm and I wanted to make something to help them out on that journey! Here’s to you @marzipannetta !

I made two versions, one with the trans pride flag and one with the non-binary pride flag. I thought about doing more but I thought this was a good start.

I strongly believe that it does NOT matter what age you come out at, be it 5 or 65! It takes everyone a different amount of time to figure themselves out and your age should not and does not confine your gender to the one you were assigned at birth or anything else.

My friend said that they didn’t see a whole lot of content for older people coming out and that just sucks. Hopefully in my content later on I can include some older people more often.

Anywho, that’s about it! Thanks for reading!

If you feel like you want to use these as things like profile pictures, I’d say go for it! The only condition is that you credit me for the art. If you don’t want to do that then you do NOT have permission to use my art.

I usually do not allow people to use my art as anything but I feel like these are a special case.

Oh! I’m so glad you liked it! I’m also glad that I could make something others could relate to! I hope it’s all good tears over there!

Edit: Let me preface this real quick! I’m going into sewing as a career! I know what I’m doing and I know to do lots of research and testing before I go and throw together some fabric and take a nap in it. I appreciate the concern you may have but I just want to head it off before every comment on here is “don’t do that! Be careful!”

Also let me say this here: when I say “sports binder” it’s because I don’t like calling it a bra. It makes me dysphoric. But since my other warning is at the bottom I don’t know if people are going to see it. This will not be a binder I’m creating.

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Just a quick one page comic! I accidentally used the wrong pen on this one so it’s a little off but oh well.

I’ve been looking for literally anything that will sort of bind my chest without being a binder so that I’m less dysphoric 24/7 but it’s been real hard. I’m not a huge dude or anything but my chest is definitely big for how small my body is. It would be tough for a cis girl to find bra that fit her with a chest like mine, let alone a trans guy looking for a flattening sports binder*!

I’ve tried so many things and I’m only trying one or two more things but I’m pretty sure I’m just going to have to engineer and make my own sports binder. I just can’t find anything that works for me.

I’m trying an outplay sports binder next and if that fails I’ll tra this thing called a “cheetah trotter” that’s meant for things like horseback riding. I will say I’ve tried an enell sports binder that was advertised as saying “if you’re looking into a reduction try this first!” And I’ve got to say, it did not live up to the reviews.😑

But oh well! I’m probably just going to make my own! High neckline because my chest starts high up and having any of it exposed makes me dysphoric, full coverage to the sides, open back so I can feel a shirt on my back for once! And just binding enough that I don’t have to layer sports binders but not as much as a regular chest binder so I can sleep in it and stuff.

Anywho, I think that’s it. I just wanted to make a silly comic as an excuse to mention that I’m going to make my own sports binder if I can’t find anything else that works.

Thanks for reading!

-Micah

I’m making a gofundme me for my top surgery fund! I’m hoping to have giveaways and possibly live streams to save up! The goal right now is $3,000 but depending on how things go I may have to save up over double that.

The surgeon I want is about $6,000 but I’m starting to think I won’t last long enough to save up that much and I just need to find a dr who takes insurance. Though my mom already said she doesn’t want me transitioning under her insurance but tbh idk if she could kick me off fast enough to stop me if I was paying for the rest of it.

Share if you can as that helps a lot!

That’s all the important info so if you’re board, go ahead and move on. Below I’m going to explain my situation.

So I live at home with my parents, both of which are christan people who believe being trans is wrong. They change the reason why they think it’s wrong a lot but I think the main thing is because they think it’s from the devil.

I am also a christian. A trans gender, asexual, panromantic Christian. I live in the Midwest where there’s not a ton of accepting people around me so dysphoria just kind of runs rampant on my life.

I just recently got a very part time job back from the lockdown and because I wasn’t making enough money before I didn’t get any stimulus check. I’ll literally be making less than $60 a week and I don’t know how much I’ll be able to work extra because I currently have a concussion.

I wanted to try and stay in gymnastics all the way up until I had surgery but I don’t think I’ll be able to do that. If my concussion doesn’t get better I may have to quit anyway. If I do I can try and work more but there’s still the issue of the concussion.

Right now I have a total of $55 saved up and set aside for top surgery. Not much but it’s something. I can’t drive and I don’t have a car anyway so getting to jobs will be a hassle and I may have to save for a car alongside top surgery.

As an autistic person it can get really overwhelming and hard to work with people too much and my job right now is literally to make sure the worst of the worst kids follow rules in a basketball gym. That’s a lot of people-ing if you ask me (lol). Point is, I definitely can’t do this job very often or for forever.

I’ll be looking into other job options but at the very least it could help me loads if people could share this around and donate if you can or feel like it. Even the tiniest bit helps. If I get enough money for top surgery before I’m done with gymnastics I’m quitting. Those people are almost all very unaccepting so it’ll feel nice to say I’m quitting to go be my true self, don’t you think?

Anyway, thank you for reading through my giant rant, you’re all precious!

Anyone have any recommendations for top surgeons who take insurance, and do online consults? I’m doing some research myself but hearing who other people think is good would help too!

I originally wanted to go to dr kennith wolf but I don’t think I can wait long enough to save enough for that since he doesn’t accept insurance. If anyone knows something different about that dr in particular that would help me get top surgery faster that’d help a lot!