☆ lain

Ok so there’s this little wholesome fantasy I haven’t been able to stop thinking about because it feels so innocent and sweet.

It’s the idea of being at that stage where a little is learning to sleep independently and stay in their own bed, but bedtime is somewhat difficult. Imagine daddy has finished reading bedtime stories, but the little keeps asking for more. Eventually, after several books and all the bedtime rituals, daddy finally says goodnight and leaves the room, keeping the door cracked open with a nightlight on.

The little tries to fall asleep but can’t settle and before long, they’re getting out of bed and going downstairs, where daddy is cleaning up the kitchen or watching a show. He notices them and gently asks, “why aren’t you in bed?” He carries them back upstairs, tucks them in again, and reminds them that it’s time to sleep and that they need to stay in their bed.

Hm I’m not sure. There’s just a lot more risk and uncertainty with traveling abroad for someone you meet online. My fear is that I’d get there and they would ghost me, and now I’m stuck in a whole different place and have already spent money on a plane ticket and hotel, etc.

A full on accident? I mean idk, if I have, it’s probably been like 14 years since haha.

I mean, I’ve had like small drops of pee slip out if someone makes me laugh too much and I already have a full bladder? But yeah, I mean it doesn’t really happen to me.

For context though, I was a chronic bedwetter growing up, like it was bad. Every single night until the 3rd grade. I know with this kink and all, it’s fun to fantasize or write stories about bedwetting, but it was actually such a hard time as a kid. I used to cry a lot when it would happen because I felt so ashamed. It was out of my control.

There’s just too many memories that I don’t think I could pin point a favorite, but I’d say I experienced the most with a relationship I had in 2024. He was a vanilla guy that I introduced it too and abdl played a large role in our life and daily routine which was super refreshing. You know, I was able to have diaper changes, bottle feedings, bath time, bedtime stories, pacifiers, nothing was off the table really, and I didn’t have to hide myself (or social media).

Although I wouldn’t say I look back on these experiences often since a lot of the times those experiences are tied to men I’ve dated or have had some kind of situationship with, so naturally there are a lot of other emotions or issues tied to that relationship, because if there weren’t, it wouldn’t have ended haha.

I wouldn't say I'm actively looking for a relationship. I don’t talk much about my love life or relationships on here but figured I’d open up a bit more.

About a month ago I met a guy from the community and had an amazing time. It really felt like there was a connection, so after our little weekend ended and he left, our communication slowly faded, which honestly caught me off guard given the overall positive tone of the texts we had been sending. I'm still not really sure what happened, but I try not to jump to conclusions because there could be a lot going on in his life. Honestly pretty bummed but if anything, that experience made me realize I need to not put so much weight on things and/or not let the fact that someone is into abdl cloud my judgement.