untie yourself

it irritates me so much when people feel like they need to put me down in front of others. To what, feel good about yourself?

I went to the hardware store this weekend with a friend and I stopped to look at a unique houseplant near the entrance, cause I’ve never seen a black houseplant and I was interested. This person stops, tries to berate me for “getting distracted” and then looks at the front door person and says out loud “hahaha I can’t take her anywhere” and then is annoyingly negative the entire time

am I too sensitive? I’m trying to understand the motivation and reason behind wanting to put me down for trying to look at a plant. I’m not meaning to overthink here (lol) but this interaction is bothering me. This person has shown before many times that they view me as lesser, despite being kind and loving. They talk down to me and try to explain to me simple concepts, like I’m a child. I know I’ve been difficult in the past, but there has to be room for growth yes? Especially since this isn’t the first time I’ve brought this problem up.

This is the part of life I have trouble with. How do I tell someone over and over again “stop treating me like an idiot or a child.” I used to feign stupid a lot when either I didn’t feel like engaging with what’s been said or if I was feeling lazy (‘these ppl could never understand’) I’ve changed a lot, and I think it’s taking a while for people around me to catch up, but it’s immensely frustrating when I just want to be treated well. I thought that was the bare minimum?

Blegh

I’m just tired of this circle of behavior where things that are common sense keep getting explained to me, I say “oh cool, I knew that already but thanks” and then immediately I get snapped and huffed at. THATS the childish behavior, to me.

house doesn’t have AC, work doesn’t have AC