For the ask game:
28 What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?
15 Does anyone you know in real life know you write fanfiction?
15. Loads. My sister gets live updates during MTH auctions and my last FWB was so tickled by the idea she asked for my Ao3 profile and actually read a few. My ex also knew because I told him when we first met, but after we got married things were so depressing I didn't actually write anything for the next decade we were together, so unsure if he knows I still do since I magically started writing again once he'd been kicked to the curb. The kids though do know, they harass me while I play WIP games on discord, and I've also tagged the older kiddo in for a few rounds when she had me doing her a favor.
28. I'm over here mad cackling trying to decide the answer because angst is my absolute jam. It's a three way tie, and i'll drop the two published ones under a cut bc MCD.
The WIP that is dripping with delicious angst has our two favorite 'don't mess with my brain in any way i'm traumatized post brainwashing' hit by magic that makes them think they are soulmates, which in this verse comes with feeling sharing/sensing and most people don't actually have soulmates. Clint didn't even believe they existed, and when the connection happens they are both horrified and scared by this brain invasion and have much angst about 'that asshole doesn't want me for a soulmate.' They finally work through that while the team continues to try and capture this fugitive witch and fall in love. Then the spell breaks and now they're questioning if any of it (the love and emotions) were real and are back in a panicked angst filled spiral about what does this mean. It's fantastic. I can't wait to finish/publish it.
Contender 2: The whole first part of the series is Clint desperately trying to keep Bucky alive mid-battle after he's grievously injured, only for Bucky to regain consciousness as Clint is shot from behind, splattering Bucky with organic material. My favorite comment to date:
Oh dude, what the fuck! Haha omg "This is a rough one guys" Shoulda listened to that.
Am very proud of the switcheroo. Series continued as part of whumptober and Bucky is very much not coping with the death of the person he'd been going to propose to and ask to retire, which if he had Clint wouldn't have died. He can't sleep and spirals enough he attempts to end the nightmares permanently.
Contender 3: Bucky and Clint are on a doomed spaceship and the oxygen runs out. Clint's experience of hypoxia is euphoric and he makes Bucky dance with him as he dies in his arms.
