He was ostracized from his academic field and his girlfriend left him because he’s not “realistic” because he is tenacious enough to stick to his idea at great personal cost but he does not want to die. They tell him he has no family, not even a dog, implying he doesn’t have much to live for anyway, but that means he doesn’t have much to die for, either. When you’ve accomplished a lot, like being an astronaut, and have people you love maybe you can feel like you’ve had a good enough life and the sacrifice might feel more worthy but Dr. Ryland Grace doesn’t have that. He does seem to like teaching middle school but he’s not so fulfilled because after all it was something he resorted to after losing his career. The government, all of them, drug him and put him in that spaceship anyway and when he wakes up he is the only one left alive.
The Eridians fully planned for the crew to return alive. Rocky has a mate of 186+ years back home and is the only hope the planet has left. They already had the sample and Rocky theoretically could have manipulated the spacecraft enough to get back without Grace at a much lower risk. Yet Rocky chooses to risk it all to drag Grace to the medicine bot. At least the suicide mission crew had heroin to go out painlessly when they’re done; Rocky made every step with searing pain throughout the entire body.
Grace is a bit aloof, he even said himself that he likes having walls up. But making a connection is rude.
I put myself in a ball so I can come to you and I’m moving in. Damn bitch you live like this. Build my room. I can echolocate through the walls and hear every under the breath whisper. We are going to figure out Astrophage and then go home. No fuel for go home? You are going home, statement. I’ll just go home more slowly.
Of course he chose Rocky over Earth, because home is where he’s not alone.
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Occasionally I think back to a Hail Mary fic (forgot which) where Rocky offhandedly mentions Adrian was writing a theoretical paper about an alien civilisation that didn’t consider food a taboo. And honestly it was a missed opportunity for Ryland to do The Funniest Thing Ever
Humanity “every single holiday is about eating or abstaining from food”
“The vast majority of socialising occurs around the prep and consumption of food”
“Organized society evolved around agriculture”
“Different cultures have different rules when it comes to eating food. Violating these rules could mean anything from being stared at to getting publicly executed”
“Politics are often discussed around food. Food diplomacy is based entirely on how good the food is”
“It’s rude to eat these with those utensils. It’s rude to use utensils altogether for this meal. It’s rude to eat these with your hands”
“There are chemical compounds that are extremely poisonous that humans consume for fun. Some of them physically burn you”
“Televised eating competitions”
It would’ve been crazy once Rocky returned and was all “yeah we saved the world and evaded death and oh boy do I have some news for you”
Ryland spent the four years stuck on that tin can writing shit out for Adrian because what the hell else was he gonna do? Food is basically the pillar of human society he’d have a field day. Adrian is gonna be writing his damn thesis for years
Eridian culture will be thrown on its head. Kids are gonna start eating in public just to mess with people. It’ll be the end of organised society
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Do you think the Eridians even knew the light spectrum existed before Grace
Like, Erid is pitch dark because its atmosphere is too dense to allow light through to the surface, or any other type of radiation for that matter (thus why they didn't know to shield against ionizing radiation on the Blip-A). Nothing on the planet even evolved to have eyes as far as we know.
I'm just imagining it going like
Rocky, brandishing his texture "camera": I invented this to hear the wavelengths of electromagnetic energy Friend Grace can hear with the sensory orbs in his upper carapace
Eridian scientists: ...the WHAT Savior Grace can hear with WHAT
Rocky: also we need to invent something that emits electromagnetic energy of certain wavelengths or he won't be able to navigate his biodome. His "hearing" isn't the same as our hearing, he has several extra senses.
Actually this is extra funny because Eridians and humans have practically no senses in common. TECHNICALLY hearing, but only because they have different processes for recognizing sound waves that happen to result in the same information gained (in the same range of frequencies).
Eridians do not have senses of sight, taste, or smell, and their sense of touch is limited through their carapace (though presumably they feel touch beneath it and in their internal systems considering they can feel pain). Humans do not sense magnetic fields to navigate.
Scientists: what do you MEAN they have several extra senses
Rocky: okay so I had to invent a lot of new words so you're going to have to bear with me for a bit here
Love love love that Grace is staring at the "who would you die for?" line on his whiteboard right before Rocky shows up in his xenonite container. Yes hello here is someone so important to you that you would sacrifice your life for him. He's in a hamster ball on your doorstep and he's about to run into your spaceship and insult your house and wreck your shit. You would die for him in every lifetime, and only because of that do you end up living.
This is a follow-up to "I am losing my mind over the lighting of the Hail Mary," which I wrote pretty much to set context and argue It Really Is That Deep. Going into this, I am assuming you also believe the way lighting is used in PHM is intentional.
(Note: My screencaps come from a specific leak of PHM that is shockingly HQ but does have desaturation issues. I've done a HSV Saturation run on several images but not all of them. My screencap folder is like +300 items now and there's only so many hours in the day. If I could buy this on blu-ray TODAY I would.)
Sooooo... what's up with Grace and rainbows, question?
In Grace's very first flashback/recovered memory, one of the first things we see is a ring of light, rainbow. When he finally remembers being betrayed and put onto the Hail Mary against his will, this memory is triggered by the refracting light in Rocky's ship connecting to the rainbow overhead on the day he tried to run.
Refracted light is practically Grace's thumbprint smudged onto every corner of the story, the narrative voice in prismatic form. It truly reaches drinking game levels of ubiquity.
When Stratt first meets Grace, he just happens to be draped in a cloak of rainbow light. More subtly, but still obviously once you're looking for it, when he arrives on the aircraft carrier, he brings along a small halo of colored light.
At its most subtle, it comes from glass. Every time the camera implicitly slides into Rocky's POV, settling over his shoulder to observe Grace through xenonite glass, there are coronas to be found, touching Grace at all times. In the Clock Bros scene, when Grace leans in to observe Rocky's eridian clock, a smudge of refraction just happens to pop up. I cannot emphasize enough how no frame of this movie is safe from the rainbow.
Dr. Ryland Grace adjusts a light and it looks like a dance club in the Castro, it's absurd.
So, down to basics: why? What makes cameras do That Thing?
Well, it's not unique to cameras. It's a matter of glass and white-toned light. Modern camera lenses are either treated with a diffusion layer or have specific filters meant to diffuse light-- to break it up more clearly. When you use a lens without that coating, almost any light source can make this happen.
The rainbow, the prismatic light, it comes from a lack of filter, from the removal of deliberate or accidental barriers. You need light. You need glass. Clarity.
Okay but why, narratively?
Nope, not yet. First, let's look at Grace's physicality as more and more lenses surround him. I'm personally deeply obsessed with how Grace interacts with Rocky's xenonite barrier.
In their first meeting, Rocky assumes he's dealing with another creature that relies on hearing as primary form of perception. After all, Rocky can hear through to the other side of the Mary with pinpoint accuracy, can even track Grace's status and location on the hull of the ship when falling into high orbit. But this weird alien bypasses each section of the nice big solid acoustically-friendly wall to focus in on the one spot where light shines through.
So the next wall Rocky builds is geometric blocks of glass. Which Grace, without prompt, makes himself comfortable with, finding any and all alcoves and wedging himself in.
Fun fact: It takes less than 30 seconds for Grace to go from "IDK you watching me sleep is weird" before the smash cut to "i have now dragged a cushion, pillow, and my favorite quilt into the glass to sleep here." I counted 26 seconds.
I can't even make that weird by pointing anything out about it. We have already started at Grace making it weird, to my absolute delight.
But even when Rocky decides to move onto the Mary, Grace doesn't seem to mind beyond some token protests on his little vlog. Which is quite remarkable, because wow. Wow. Look at this.
Here is Ryland Grace, under glass.
There is such an secession of space to Rocky. Even if it weren't, these shapes and the way they bend light and cast shadows are the focal point of every scene. Always center of frame, and we always watch how Grace interacts with this, how he bends to duck underneath, how he drags monitors closer for Rocky to see, how he continues to sleep pressed along any sympathetic angle he can find.
Add to that how Grace is framed, as a significant chunk of the film is looking through the glass at Grace, and this begins to invert the core concept of what's occurring here. Who is in an enclosure here, really? Does the glass keep Rocky safe? Yes, but does it also keep Grace safe?
Even after the two have gone their separate ways, Grace doesn't dismantle the enclosures to reclaim the space. Instead, as he contemplates turning back to his almost-certain death to save Rocky and Erid, he lays in the Don't-Go-Crazy room with a foggy memory surrounding him, his body weight against alien glass.
Grace's happy ending was something that I could not even conceive of until the moment it happened. I honestly couldn't imagine the story would let Grace live, let him save Rocky, and then let him be a teacher again.
Erid is a planet without enough light to see, and yet the people there build a ball of glass just for Grace, tailored to his happiness and whim.
That's a whole lotta motif-building. Now is time for the question: what does it mean?
Art is subjective and my answer will differ from yours. Here's what it makes me feel:
Between this post and the previous table-setting post, the thing that I cannot stop fixating on is how this situation should feel versus how much effort the film goes into to avoid that exact emotional beat.
We have a story about a man from earth, sent off into space, expected to live out the remainder of his life on a spaceship. This ship is further encroached on by necessity as the space is sectioned out to create a habitable area for an alien. In the end, this man's reward is a dome built to give him a habitable space on an otherwise inhabitable planet. He'll never see his home planet ever again.
All of the markers are there. This should be a story of claustrophobia and small spaces and feeling trapped with the walls closing in and no way to break through them because death is on the other side, be it the void of space or the hot, ammonia-drenched atmosphere of Erid.
Should be.
But there's the other side of the story. Grace's last memory of Earth is his voice failing mid-sentence as a needle pierces his skin, as one of his only friends and protectors watches him struggle, and overheard there is a rainbow.
Earth wouldn't take no for an answer. He'd never be a teacher again. A barbed wire fence stands before the rainbow.
I know writers who use subtlety and they're all cowards.
Here's what Project Hail Mary is really saying, with all of its rainbows and refractions and a crying man who sleeps against prisms: Ryland Grace was the light the entire time. It's not something he's looking for, it's not the Deep Truth he's seeking. He just needed a way to shine, to remember it was there.
"Oh yeah, uh... I'm Grace," he says, introducing himself as the world blooms with colored light around him.
They told me that the end is near; we gotta get away from here.
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I know we're all sort of picturing Rocky just hanging out fully depressed with 22 dead crewmates for 40+ years but I need you all to imagine, just for a second, Rocky holding 22 heart-wrenching space burials and then having the greatest post-burial crashout mirroring Ryland's vodka party. He was probably starfishing on the ground for 2 weeks straight, singing to himself before he got a grip again. I need more headcanons about Rocky doing stupid shit to cope with his grief. Movie!Ryland got to dance with a broom. Fandom, work your magic.
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the funniest thing about 'computer, enhance' is that it implies that everyone in those shows has their computer set to Piece Of Shit Blurry Image Mode by default for no fucking reason