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Men are not the devil and masculinity is not evil. I promise there are men out there who can empathize or even relate to your experiences. I've met some genuinely kind, compassionate, and empathetic men over the years who helped me feel just as loved and accepted as other women.

I'm going to let you in on a little secret.

You ready?

YOU HAVE TO STOP TEARING YOURSELF DOWN.

Tearing yourself down is harmful to other people who might want to connect with you. It is painful for other queers to see someone hate themselves that much. It attracts the kind of people who really like that you don't have standards or self respect. You deserve better, and you need to believe that before you can really connect to others.

I've seen so many groups of trans girls that fall into this death spiral of self hatred. This belief that nobody else understands them is hiding the fact that they're pushing anyone who might understand them away by existing in this malaise of destructive behavior.

loneliness is a big factor. it's been said a many times before but gi-hun was very lonely and isolated. starved of human contact and affection. both intentionally and unintentionally. he was severely traumatised by his experiences in the games and in less than 24 hours lost his childhood friend, lost his mum, and his daughter was overseas. that can be very damaging to a psyche especially when we consider he latched on almost obsessively to the idea of the 'frontman' - the obsessive agenda to find him became his only goal in his life and his comfort. yeah his comfort, it was his drive. it's an element i find that is always overlooked, in-ho was obsessed with gi-hun, and it was returned he just didn't know who he was obsessed with.

a deep yearning to be seen and heard. it's a common theme throughout the show of gi-hun standing in a room screaming to be heard. 'believe me' radiates off his aura but everyone dismisses him. young-il/in-ho didn't do that because in gi-hun's eyes in-ho immediately trusted him, didn't care that he was wrong about the dalgona game, and wanted to be around him. we see gi-hun absolutely baffled at this in different points, this stranger? trusting him? seeking him out? a companion similar to him wanting money for his family? it's not a surprise, it can't be, because it's perfectly orchestrated. in-ho knew how to twist his agenda so perfectly, he pulled gi-hun in hook, line, and sinker.

gi-hun is a good and trusting man. when we meet people for the first time, the automatic human reaction isn't to immediately distrust (depending on who you are), we're curious and take an interest in the stranger. gi-hun, bless him, is intially and correctly wary of this stranger getting into his personal space but it soon fades because of in-ho's sob story. plus gi-hun already felt bad for snapping at him. so he got the lies. why wouldn't he believe? anyone would, so he did. and he trusted because it plays into his need to be seen, heard, and a yearning to be around someone - to form a kinship. but gi-hun truly never knew the depth of the betrayal.

even in the end, i think...from a personal pov...i think it hurt too much to learn the truth. a shock so powerful enough to punch you emotionally to tears, a righteous anger thrumming through your veins but you stay your hand because it's...him. it's not just the man you were obsessively hunting down, it's the man you trusted, shared comradeship with, someone who believed you, someone you thought had died for you, your agenda, and there he is. your friend. sitting in front of you unharmed but wielding a mask which haunted your dreams. it's enough to make anyone flee - which he did.

Enjoy the rent lowering gun shot.

According to Nostradamus, Silksong will come out on a day without a night once the chosen one has brought balance to the force by fighting an agent and winning while a bridge collapse kills 46 so the sleeper named for the mouse shape on the moon can awaken the ten plagues of Egypt and ingest the bodies of the four men who opened his tomb before the birthmarked child kills the queen who pulled the sword from a stone on March 15th once the forests walk and a man who was never born kills a guy so his soul can be used as a weapon in the war on heaven and the chosen undead collects the lordvessel.

Hey Apollo-

at the caves of mount fay. straight up "crushing it."

and by 'it,' haha, well.

That should outrage the entire planet.

WE DO!!!

since my brain is 95% inhun, let's create a lil inhun sugar baby au!!

i personally always think these are funnier when gihun is still his 50 year old self and meets inho, who is still two years younger, and very wealthy.

imagine s1 gihun who runs into depressed frontman inho, spilling coffee all over his shirt. gihun is quick to apologize, pulling rumpled tissues from his pockets to dab away the stain. inho is so shocked, both by the ice coffee running down his front and by this man who is trying everything he can to get the stain out.

its instant attraction, on both sides. gihun is a hot mess but inho likes him like that. after this encounter, he begins "running" into gihun: at the market, at the race tracks, at jungbae's pub. gihun is none the wise and happily welcomes him everytime.

the sugar babying starts small - paying for gihun's drink at the pub, for some vegetables at his mother's stall, for a new bet at the tracks. inho finds gihun at the convenience store and pays for his cigarettes and for his meal (which inho insists he have). next, he offers to get gihun a new shirt, then its jeans, then a nice suit to wear to work; every time, the clothes are in gihun's size and fit him perfectly.

by the end of the month he's paying for most of gihun's expenses. he hasn't slept with gihun, true, but he doesnt want to rush himself. he already spends plenty of time with gihun. the next stage is making it so that gihun can only rely on inho; not jungbae, not his mom or his ex-wife, just inho.

by the end of month two, inho has made it so that gihun doesnt gamble much anymore since he no longer has jungbae around much. inho could have made sure that gihun never gambled again, but a gihun who spends a large ammount of inhos' money is a gihun who will later feel guilty abt it and will do anything to get back in inho's good graces.....