my disordered mind

the reason i like staying up late so much is because between the hours of 1am-5am, the world is quiet and no one expects anything from me. i could stare at my wall for 4 hours and there would be no consequences. it’s so silent and calm. i love it

This is so dope!

im sorry but even the literal concept of seeing another star wars movie after this next one and another avengers movie after endgame and whatever game of thrones threequel and avatar 93 and indiana jones 7 starring harrison fords corpse and all this marketing and spoiler warning shit and people not being told what theyre doing in scenes to protect the integrity of Who Dies when it all gets leaked 3 weeks in advance anyway by someone posting the plot on reddit and some shitty pandering to some community or another and people saying they really SNAPPED with this one *spasmodic 3 frame repeating gif of the only available shot of idk the caleb gallo guy in a background role in star wars 9 in full makeup as an ewok but hes wearing a rainbow loincloth or smth* and then 12 tumblr users replying with THE BAR IS SO LOW and Sir Your Boots pics and some cast member in an interview making a face that everyone gifs and says ‘you can see the pain shes experiencing because they ruined padme jr’s character arc ugh i feel so bad for her’ and the merch and the advertising campaigns and the official twitter account using a meme only to get 7483 unoriginal SILENCE BRAND replies all while they “reboot” movies that came out less than 20 years ago for 1 billion dollars on amazon prime and produce all female remakes of Peep Show instead of just writing something fucking original for once because they know THEY KNOW that no matter how many people post jeffrey tambor i dont want these dot png in response to the indiewire announcements about yet another disney live action remake people WILL pay money to see whatever shit they churn out as long as they get ONE big name to fart their way through The Songs We Know And Love……………all of this happening…the mere thought of it….is like literally making me want to put myslef in an isolation chamber for the next thousand years and i know i will be dead in like 50 anyway but i want my body to be left in there so even it does not have to come into contact with whatever hot garbage marvel is going to churn out in phase beta or whatever the absolute fuck

Even back then, at the height of the mania, I couldn’t understand why people hated her so much. I didn’t get why her stories about Bay never got him more vitriol. When I realized she was being shut out in Hollywood, it was disappointing because I couldn’t think of anything she did to deserve it. People are dicks. 

#NOT TO BE CONTROVERSIAL ON MAIN#but like this whole ‘you’re just as bad as each other and you don’t actually understand your faves’ stance is like….so ludicrous to me#like sorry that i don’t want to share a space with the loki fandom whose overwhelming majority feels like it’s ah ok#to call brown directors racial slurs on the regular?#like pretty much all thor fans i speak to don’t have a problem with loki but with how his fans act and how thoroughly insufferable they are#and we’d just like to see thor interact with other interesting characters#because he has proven that he’s able to have chemistry with pretty much anyone and it would be nice to see characters like valkyrie#get more screentime and development rather than see tom hiddleston monologue for the hundredth time#do i love thor & loki and their messy ass relationship? sure#but do i think loki’s overhyped and that mcu has done nothing interesting with him for ages? ABSOLUTELY#i’m just fed up with loki dying in front of thor and getting revived over and over like THAT SHIT IS OLD and each time it’s just more#underwhelming than the last#and you know that if we got more movies with them together they’d honestly just end up restarting the fucking cycle and well#i’m among the people that just DON’T FUCKING WANT THAT :)#fuck it maybe spending some time apart would help them grow and do them some good#i for one would love to see thor try to pick up his shattered identity and redefine it because so much of it relied on him being#'the son of odin’ and the protector of the nine realms and so much of it is now gone#seeing thor carve out a new path for himself and build a new family (like he’s done on a much smaller scale back in thor 1)#is definitely a far more exciting concept to me than whatever stale thor&loki bread mcu would end up serving us#if that means i’m not understanding my fave LOL I’M COMPLETELY FINE WITH THAT#and with the loki show loki fans get to jerk it to hiddleston’s 'superb shakespearean training’ in the comfort of their homes#and that way maybe everyone gets to be happy?#it’s just it used to be POOR LOKI ALL THE FUCKING TIME and we’re just DONE#like you know that if people talked about tom hiddleston the way loki fans talk about chris and taika there’d be a legit apocalypse lol