penis out on queen

jay is dead boyfriend reposting videos of HIMSELF he's being so normal about everything I think

season 4 ntbts is gonna have an episode where Jay replaces Matt with a younger guy who looks and dresses exactly like him, and Matt burns the house down over it

imagine you hitched your star at 16 to a kid in your suburb everyone sees potential in but not like you do. no one else drops out of their prestigious music program to focus his genius into a show. and then you blink and you're both over forty and despite some hiccups you've been making art together for over twenty years. and suddenly the world is seeing what you always saw, and suddenly he's doing it without you. the first movie of his you're not on set for, had no creative input on, despite it being about bourdain, a figure you love and he knows nothing about. you're not there, but the kid he keeps lauding in the press is. the kid who kind of looks like bourdain, but mostly looks like you. and then this movie is finally coming out and you've suffered through the premiere, an event so different to the past calendar year because you're not here as the creative partner you're just the composer, and it's coming out in the states and all this is almost over. and then the next day you have to go to his wedding. and then the next day is your birthday. just another week in the cursed life of jay mccarrol.

matt neurotically admitting to things when he's stressed out during an interview generates so much sickly pathos material for me to energy vampire off of. "yeah so my mother told me i was ugly and unlikable and untalented as a child. i'd go to school and everyone would treat me like a little boy genius but then i'd come home and my mom would be like '🙄 the autist is back' haha. anyway happy to be here success feels amazing. i'm getting married the day after this piece of shit premieres so i don't have time to process anything. it will be on my best friend's (picture the words radiating a sickly green glow) birthday."

mattjay long con I think maybe when they’re in their 60s it’ll finally happen

but when i fantasize at night its matthew johnsons eyes