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Not to go "if you have ADHD just go for a run" or anything, but I am so serious if you have ADHD you should regularly go outside, no headphones no phone no nothing and just stand and observe for a while until you've had enough. Not until you get bored, until you've had enough. Drink your coffee without watching tiktok. Have a bath without music. Turn down the volume in your headphones. I cannot overstate how much learning to be bored is cruicial with ADHD. Life is not just about pleasure, no matter what your dysregulated dopamine system thinks, and when you teach your brain to be okay with being bored, then boring tasks stop feeling like torture. By letting yourself be bored you are yoinking your system out of the high/low binary and allow for the highs to feel like actual highs and not just anything that isn't low. I am so serious go literally touch grass. Listen to the sounds in your flat. Stimulate your body the way it was designed. It lowers anxiety and makes you feel like you're real and best of all it's completely free

I need to work, but I am the opposite of locked in. I'm locked out, and I'm barking at the door to be let in.

i think doing a leap of faith like a little assassin’s creed character would fix me

i said it was my favorite piece of media that i’ve hyperfixated on since the tender age of 12 and have not let go of since. i didnt say it was a Good piece of media

“what do you like about it so much?” the fact that it cocooned me like a tender wool blanket during my vulnerable teenage years. next question

ve schwab's books are absolutely phenomenal, in every possible sense. the beautiful, brilliant existentialism and wonderfully unique premise of “the invisible life of addie larue.” the incredible world and simply fantastic adventure of “a darker shade of magic.” the moral greyness and bloody, tempting darkness of “vicious.” the haunting story and gorgeous, immersive setting of “gallant.” the gory battles and disturbing imagery of “this savage song.” i adore her work so, so deeply. if you haven't read her books, you absolutely must.

dads in fiction <<< guys in fiction who see a kid in a fucked up situation without a guardian to take care of them and asks is anyone gonna look after this kid? and don't wait for an answer

V.E Schwab in 2013 had the courage and nerve to ask the infamous and dangerous question "what would happen if the two worst people in the world were college roommates?"

the funniest part of Vicious is when Eli isn’t giving Victor enough attention so he decides to electrocute himself

Every night at eleven I have to choose between enjoying the sweet embrace of slumber or staying up late to do something enriching and fun that I wouldn’t otherwise have the opportunity to do. And every night at eleven I take the secret third option of “doing nothing on my phone until one in the morning.”

i finished the shades of magic trilogy yesterday and i just can't stop thinking about it. about them. schwab has me in a chokehold I just ordered almost all of her other books