I always think of the description I saw years ago: Self-imposed deadlines don't help me, because I know the person who set them, and they're full of shit.
My mom taught me to never confuse pretend and reality when I was like 4 cause she worried I might kill myself emulating the Brothers Lionheart or Superman, and now I'm supposed to pretend I can't simply buy myself candy unless I "deserve" it for cleaning the windows? Like, maintain a delusion of my own design day after day as though it would have real effects? Come on.



















