Learn. Love. Live.

I feel lost inside my own mind. For months I was able to avoid the constant thinking and analyzing because I was constantly on the move, forever in overdrive. The more I accomplish my goals. The more I look forward to starting my life and think about settling down. I hate things being constant, and I dont do well with a set routine. I can't stand feeling like I'm stuck in one place when I know there's a whole world out there to explore, different things to do and people to meet. Some may think settling down sounds like routine, but honestly it keeps you on your toes. Maybe that's why I feel so scared about what I know is going to happen. I'm not okay doing the same monotonous things with people that literally could give two shits about me. Id rather be in the comfort of my own home then be around people who dont even ask me how I am.

When the girl your ex is with looks like his mom 😳😂😂😂😂😂👌🏼✌🏼

I try to forget. Its been almost three years and I still think about you everyday. I cant rid you from my mind no matter how hard i try. I dont thonk this will ever go away. I love you in your entirety...maybe im crazy...who knows....

Remembering you is like feeling the hypothetical knife that's still in my chest. A song, a smell, a place, anything that reminds me of you is as if someone pushes it further just a little; reminding me that you're still there. It's harder than it looks, but I'm still pushing forward. each and every day pulling the knife out more and more. Maybe I was right all along, that I will always love you, that you will always hold a special place in my heart. I do care, maybe that's why I'm still so bitter. Maybe that's why I'm still so flawed and held back in my current love life. You were my best friend, and we ruined that, I ruined that. And as I continued to try to pick up the pieces and mend our friendship, you pulled away and shut me out for good. I don't know what hurts worse, knowing I can forgive you for all the bullshit you put me through when you don't deserve it, or knowing you'll never forgive me for the bullshit I've put you through.

Everyone makes choices in life. And those choices either make or break you. You can make the right choice and follow the path you know is the correct one to make, or you can follow that path you know you shouldn’t go down, but you do. Life is all about choices. You choose how someone, or the comments they make, influence you. You can choose how to act and react to life and the environment around you. It’s up to you how you live your life and how you let others affect you. You have the choice to rise above the bullshit. No matter what you have been through, no matter what someone has said or done to you, rise above it. Because your life is worth it. You are worth it, whatever you been through, whatever you have overcome, whatever you are struggling with, YOU ARE WORTH IT.